After a looooong time...

We're finally meeting up(: so happy! Came home feeling damn sleepy, due to the accumulated lack of sleep! Due to fucked up PW & MT!!!! -.- Slept all the way till 5, got ready, and out i go fer dinner(: Dinner was yummy(: Caught the SISTER'S KEEPER after that.. Its such a sad movie that i hate it!!! Its the 1st ever movie that made me leave the cinema feeling so bad... Till now alright.. But i hate to admit the movie's good.. Am excited for tmr(: Shopping with mom would be a bomb(: I shall await(:

BEST FRIENDS

This happens when you start to like/love your frens tooo deeply that you fall deeper and deeper into it ech day...I've been thinking about it for the past few days, and i admit it was tough.. But to keep it going, its best things return to how it began... I want to watch you grow spirtually, mentally, physically and all, whatever you name it.. I want to be the fren that you'll come to when you're down, happy, embarrassed, in love or frustrated? Yes, i want to be the one watching and guiding you through silently, by your side... Cause, thats wad best frens do(: Last but not least, I LOVE YOU BEST FRIEND, though things could have turned out better...

GREATEST REMEDY

SHOPPING BABY!!! thats the greatest remedy(: today's kinda like the cousins' outing hahaha!:D went shopping at vivo to wash away all my stress from deadly pw-.- We boought quite alot? especially the 3 girls(: we totally raid topshop(: ahhaha(: zw bought things tooo(: I LIKE(: followed by dinner with irena and ornela(: hahaha!!!(: okaye back to pw:(

SURPRISE!!!!!!!

I AM SO FRIGGING HAPPY AND SURPRISED:D

I nvr expected you to talk to m on msn first, and nvr expect you to call me(: (: (: Just when i wanted to forget you, you pop up and made me realised how pampered i am.. We talked on the phone like nth happened before, recalling the times you had to deal with miss difficult(:

Iwas laughing and crying secretly, cause how silly of me to not see how much you've done for me in the past.. I truly believe how you've pampered me(: Recalling the times when i had such sleepless nights, you wld cuddle me to bed by telling me all the stupid jokes that made me laugh(: the bedtime stories i wld request from you(: How we wld just lie down and talk bout everyth under the stars, how we wld always spill our secrets to one another(: Nvr fail to call me when i cant sleep, nvr fail to turn up before me when i needed you...

Nvr fail to understand me, always knowing wad i want.. Always buying me stuff, every single time we go out(: Being my image"consultant" haha:D And how we wld shop fer clothes and everyth tgt(: Eat, shop EAT, shop(: how you wld always cheer me up when im angry(: You really knw how to deal with miss difficult(: And yes, i admit i used to hide those things like stars and all, haha i guess that was childish of me?(: I wld always come running to you, tellin you how angry i am with my family, frens and teachers.. and ended up crying because of them!!! You nvr fail to get me tissue, and i mean tissue BOXES haha!! yes you're right(:

someone said this last nite:" i knw you hate to cry, but you cry alot. casue you that's the only way you resort to venting your frustrations and sadness."

Ohmy totally!!! At least you knw the reason why im crying, and not thinking that i actually LOVE crying.. Although i didnt had to speak much last nite, you seem to knw everyth.. You understand wad im goin thru.. And if you're reading this, i just wanna thank you(: and get a hair cut that you promised me ya?(:

lastly, i cant bear to let you guys go...

MY HAPPY PILLS(:

MY DEAREST AWESOME FOURSOME:(

BFF:( i'll support you no matter how much i hate to see you leave)

my TALLEST bestfren(: you knw I LOVE YOU even if we get bitchy<3

PROMOS (when you face the reality)

Got back our damn promos results today.. Yes i passed all but so wad? It doesn't mean im happy? In fact im afraid and sad.. I cant imagine promoting to J2 w/o the rest of you... You knw the 6 of us have always been damn close.. And im gonna miss cameron if he doesn't make it too:(

everything's gonna be different and i mean REALLY DIFFERENT.. it feels like im in an alien world... You guys made me fall in love with you all and now you are all gonna leave me alone? I reli cant accept it.. I knw this day wld come.. But i jus choose to avoid thinking bout this.. And i reli dont want any of you to leave sch... pls...

Cant imagine my best fren is leaving me... Like 2 best frens leaving you in the same yr... It hurts.. You dunno how much im gonna miss you ppl.. its like i see you guys in every corner of the sch, i reli cant accept it.. when we all skip sch tgt:( canteen extension, noodle stall, library, e212, J212, stadium, and last but not least especially the GYM:( typing this alone makes me tear non-stop.. I knw you guys might think that im bullshitting cause i pass all and sld feel happy but im reli not.. Ican swear that im reli sad becasue of you guys okaye.. You guys have became so impt to me that its no longer bout me its bout you guys...

AISYAH, CAMERON, JUEHUA, KEESIANG & ZHANWEI I LOVE YOU GUYS...:( AND I MISS YOU PPL ,EVEN NOW... i dunno y, but i cant help it..

screwed up girl

finally understood im not up fer this game

cant handle this

dont deserve this

tired

stops believing

im just goin back to hiding

SORRY..........

no amount of sorry makes up for what had happened.. Im crying agn... I did things that i sldn't have done it at all... I can no longer do the things i used to, i miss .....I lost things that i'll nvr get back agn.. I knw its all my fault.. I was too pampered, spoilt for having so much fun.. Thinking that although you cant be here fer me, its alright,, Cause i have my frens who can keep accompany thru the times when i want to stay away and hide.. i thought i could escape.. i dunno who else to turn to from now onwards... To keep it all to yourself is the best remedy... I feel awful now... Spoilt fer always thinking i could lean back on the company of friends.... you can call me a slut,bitch,loser,sucker, whatever you wanna name me...

MORE ON MY LAPPY, thnx to juehua who spam it with his face!