dancers kiss-mars

The dancers had a christmas gathering at jm's place with steamboat. Ltr we head down to the studio for some drinking session to make our targets drunk! Alright just a short write up a real short one! gonna prepare my study materials for my Primary school kids~!(:

HOHOHOHO

Santa's in town, and i just caught a sight of him slipping thru me last nite(: MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL!!(: i hope all of you enjoyed your x'mas like i do(:

injustice

or rather just a waste of time? I cant help it but i really need to rant. I can promise that i put in my heart and soul in every planning and gifts i got for each and everyone of my frens. I dont forget your b'days and i dont like ingrates. I see everyone putting in effort but not you. The lest i expect from you is cooperation . im sorry but you just suck. He rmbs your b'day or sld we say all of us so you jolly well put in the effort to repay our kindness. Im sick of your all talk no work attitude MR. insincere jerk

im travelling

soon enough for me to be off with my lagguage

pom pom pom PROMMMM(:

up there are some pictures from prom(: there is way too many to be up here so just a few(: prom was alright food wasn't tat good, but we've got a good mc. quite an entertaining nite with the lovely dancers(: Post prom was drinking session with the seniors, which was epic. Some were "sober" and some started to dance, quarrel and all which was pretty much a fun sight to watch, just the aftermath rashes that suck-.-

IM BACK TO REVIVE YOU BLOGGYYYY(:

Finally A's is over!!! imma happy child now! hope this stays on till the day i get back my results!!! though im reli crossing my fingers for it! so far post A's activities were good not so much of a boredom more of fun(: i cant get enough of it(: my first activity right after A's would be to the marina barrage with the dancers! which was pretty much a good thing to celebrate the end of exams. more to come!(:

i hate the F word

FAIL



When life fails you, what's next? This is the part of journey that really kills me.. I am fearful and unprepared. I dont want to face this. Bring me somewhere, where i get to hide and hide and hide till im done escaping..

I wish this happens everyday(:

my only escape

SUM & EILEEN

both make good company(: After being in hunger for the whole day, i met up with the above 2

pigs as planned for dinner(: After which was frolicks! But i seemed to have developed a phobia

for it haha! BUT then agn, both piggies love it more cause it thicker now? hahaha! Okaye time to

really plan for our end of year trip tgt!! cant wait! okaye for this i shall keep myself motivated to

study for my A's(:

on a lighter note, i just realised something, she really loves him alot so much so that she's willing

to suffer and live on with his nonsence, i salute her really(:

it always seems better on the other end

when life wasn't all bout goals, when i was so much happier..

of the world, which is so near yet so far:( Sld i say, i somehow miss that place or im yearning for

it too much? Somehow it looks pretty much more fun, and full of zest. The tranquility there and

the breeze somehow smells sweeter and gentler. It seems like life wld be better over there? Yet,

life seems to screw up everywhere, anytime, somehow. I guess thats what that makes life

interesting?

Im tired after all these stupid competitions ard me and all the mugging, which is so lifeless at the

end of the day. You study hard so that you can get a good job in future, alright sounds

reasonable. You work hard to get a good life in future, sounds reasonable too? But when are we

going to really get to enjoy all these futures that we're working for? The day when we step into

our coffin? Somehow all these noble aspirations ends up into a vicious cycle that we can never

get out of. I hate to say this but im pretty much sure that all of us wants to get out of this vicious

cycle badly, but we cant, cause we've longed been bought over by this system and the thought of

quitting puts us all back into fear. This fear of losing out, and what wld happen if i stop working

so hard!??!?!

its so sad to live on, in a place like this..

my hatred for you goes all the way back

you damn bloody soccer. I HATE SOCCER FOR LIFE! if my son ever go so crazy over soccer, i swear i'll kill him.What's the point of living when you're so occupied with it going to the extent of sacrificing someone you say you love! I can nvr leave with this shit named soccer.

SHOW's show

Went to watch LUO ZHI XIANG's concert on sat(: It was spectaular indeed, nvr fail to put up such an awesome performance(: The next time round i watch his concert, im gonna watch it in taiwan(: Alright pictures shall do the rest of the ilustration.

sigh...

Im supposed to be sleeping in my cosy bed now, after having a long day studying for my chem test tmr. Yet, im wide awake now being engulfed by what i was told. I cant seem to express the countless grievences i have in me. Don't take sides or pin point when you dont even know a single shit! Im pissed like reli pissed this time round. Why is it always me? You're just so biased towards your son! You always make assumptions!

Back then, you put all the blame on me, now you place everything on me agn! Do you knw how i feel back then?! when im all alone there w/o my parents and all, you came down so harsh on me! When my parents entrusted me into your care-.- You didnt even bother to find out what went wrong you just came to me and push everything onto me!

Now, you're giving me everything agn, thanks i reli love you ttm!-.- If it wasn't for those misunderstandings things wldn't have turned out to be wad it is today! Do you think im not suffering? Im not having a good time either, i blame myself, i tried salvaging it, but its just like that wad can i do, damn it! You think i dont miss you? I actually miss all the things you've done for me, your ginger tea, your awesome cooking skills though your sons have been complaining bout eating the same thing for decades, and how we used to share our sour plums, how you helped me dry my hair, and most of all the 4 hour long talk we had.

I treated you like my mom, i actually miss you okaye. and i care. I dont like the way you judge me, watch me and criticise me. It hurts. i just dont like it..

Flashbacks?

Was this how it really started between us?

I didnt realised it till someone told me. Somehow, it feels the same sometimes, and yet it feels different somehow? Izzit just me living in your shadow? I seem to see you and those memories ech time i look over. I tried not to, but it just seems to linger on. She seems different.. ech time i try to avoid, i realise smth diff. i hope this lingering moments would end bit by bit..

Till i close my eyes..

Sometimes, crying is the best remedy.

I've got to admit that crying does helps. Dont avoid this just because you're a guy, who says guys can't cry or rather they shouldn't cry? Crying is type of emotion release, so every single one of you out there is given the right to cry! Take me for an instance, I cry alot.. I cry when im angry, stress, sad, happy? Its a need to de-stress!!!

Tell me what should i exactly do to make you happy? Evrything i do seems to be wrong.. Did not try my best to improve our relationship? Did i not try my best to be a good daughter? Did i not try my best to make you happy? Why am i always the one you'll pick on? I wont say things like you not loving me, cause i knw you do. What really made me so annoyed was the fact that, i dont like you inculcating those values in us. Im someone who went through education, and i have my own thoughts and mindset, so i just couldn't agree with you..Im sorry to say this, im no longer a little girl or someone whom you can influence me to inhabit that mindset of yours. No sarcasm.

Don't force me anymore..

IM HAPPY !

i hope there wont be anymore spoilers-.- Wouldn't it be good to have the seniors back for every dance pratice? They surely do help me pull thru those moments(:

if only you learnt to see how beautiful i was..

Its been a long time since i last updated this space! Hmm.. life was like a roller coaster for me, ups and downs(: But its alright, i dont mind the pain and tortures, cause i knw there's a whole bunch of MDC dancers holding me up(: If it weren't for the dancers i would have had vanished totally.. Afterall i know that im not alone, it seems like most of them are going thru somewhat similar situation.. I hope eveything goes fine and that we'll stand strong tgt(: Oh thanks sum the sucker who made things easier(:

If only you knew what i wasn't.. If only you learnt to realise this is how far i can only do.. If only you knew how hard i've tried.. If only you could see the beauty that lies within.. If only you learnt how to accept things.. If only... There is just too many things that slipped off..

now, i realise

how important you are to me my dear organiser! I totally freaked out when i found out that my hello kitty organiser was not in my bag and nowhere to be seen, i became really worried. Tears filled my eyes and i rushed out of the class halfway to search through all the classrooms i've been to and i still couldn't find it:( The office's lost and found didnt have it tooo!:( I got so sad , that i couldn't pay attention in class at all, thinking what would become of it if it lends into the hands of heartless people with .... intentions. Thanks to gina who saw my organiser and kept it for me!!! For that moment i was so damn happy to the extent of speechless!!! happy me to getback my organiser!!!(: i'll lock you tightly in my bag from today onwards(:

a map please..

This seems to be a contradicting situation now. All i can say is clarice, you're in deep shit now! I know the urgency and the need to start my engine for the tough journey ahead. Which is, start studying crazily, extra hard for my A'levels, equivalent to no watching of tv, no using of the computer, no shopping and no more daydreaming around:( There's a very small part within me that wants to start studying and prioritise that annoying big exams-.- However, a large part of me wants to end all these shit and the pain of having to endure long tutorials and lectures with a heavy head... I am sick and tired of it, it seems like the driving force and motivation i used to have and the hunger for my future all went missing.. What exactly happened to me?

PRETTAYE please(:

hmm, am thankful for all the stress relieve things to do. Seriously im tired of studyin. dont feel like studyin. dying to go overseas. at least im better now with you, you, you and you!(: secondary school frens are the ones that walk with you thru life..

hate ppl who keeps using the public to solve problems. ETC, FACEBOOK. fuck off larhs seriously-.- let me tell you, its not gonna work, in fact you're putting yourself at a losing end. It shows me how right i am in making that decision.

xoxo

Shopping craze is on trisha(:

It feels good to be able to cuddle with your girlfriend in bed just hugging the stuff toys we used to hug , and talk about all the things that happened(: Looking thru the letters we used to write to each other and all the pictures we took when we were young! the stage when we all had our 2 front tooth missing(: haha! cravings for jap jelly was so extensive that we went to make it and wait idiotic-ly in front of the fridge for it to form before we cld eat it!! HAHAHA!! we shall look forward to the slumber night(: *cross fingers* hoping that kevin wld be able to come back in time for it! Then it wld be a full attendance childhood gang gathering(: haha!

Cant wait for these things!!

1. Chalet with my special 5(:


2. Dance camp! juniors better enjoy it suckers!


3. Slumber party(: hooray!! lookin forward to it the most!!