if only you learnt to see how beautiful i was..

Its been a long time since i last updated this space! Hmm.. life was like a roller coaster for me, ups and downs(: But its alright, i dont mind the pain and tortures, cause i knw there's a whole bunch of MDC dancers holding me up(: If it weren't for the dancers i would have had vanished totally.. Afterall i know that im not alone, it seems like most of them are going thru somewhat similar situation.. I hope eveything goes fine and that we'll stand strong tgt(: Oh thanks sum the sucker who made things easier(:

If only you knew what i wasn't.. If only you learnt to realise this is how far i can only do.. If only you knew how hard i've tried.. If only you could see the beauty that lies within.. If only you learnt how to accept things.. If only... There is just too many things that slipped off..

now, i realise

how important you are to me my dear organiser! I totally freaked out when i found out that my hello kitty organiser was not in my bag and nowhere to be seen, i became really worried. Tears filled my eyes and i rushed out of the class halfway to search through all the classrooms i've been to and i still couldn't find it:( The office's lost and found didnt have it tooo!:( I got so sad , that i couldn't pay attention in class at all, thinking what would become of it if it lends into the hands of heartless people with .... intentions. Thanks to gina who saw my organiser and kept it for me!!! For that moment i was so damn happy to the extent of speechless!!! happy me to getback my organiser!!!(: i'll lock you tightly in my bag from today onwards(:

a map please..

This seems to be a contradicting situation now. All i can say is clarice, you're in deep shit now! I know the urgency and the need to start my engine for the tough journey ahead. Which is, start studying crazily, extra hard for my A'levels, equivalent to no watching of tv, no using of the computer, no shopping and no more daydreaming around:( There's a very small part within me that wants to start studying and prioritise that annoying big exams-.- However, a large part of me wants to end all these shit and the pain of having to endure long tutorials and lectures with a heavy head... I am sick and tired of it, it seems like the driving force and motivation i used to have and the hunger for my future all went missing.. What exactly happened to me?