CLARICE(:

i love my primary sch

2011-01-27T23:38:00.007+08:00

Clarice is glad that she has awesome primary schoolmates who still bother to mee tup every year after like 6 years from graduating out of primary school? I love how my classmates nvr fail to make me laugh cause i got a mark lee in class! and how we recall our never ending crazy class tales! Oh i love how they update me n their private lives too hehe!(: AWESOME 6.1(:

imma lucky girl(:

2011-01-23T03:46:00.009+08:00

My love for you people hasn't changed a bit. I didnt know we've come this far together, and i hope we'll continue to be better friends who build stronger friendship between us(: Im really happy and touched deep down that the things i get from you people are getting better, im glad you people are the only ones i share some things with, and im glad all of you have been given to me. I can't imagine us walking our own separate paths without eventually coming together at the end of the day. Cause deep down i know, what we share and went through isn't what many can do it. I hope we'll stay like this forever for many years to come by and that the people around us would watch us grow together(: I LOVE YOU ALL!!!

the organise they gave me was the best gift i've gotten so far really. shall post pictures of it another day!

sick & hungry

2011-01-20T14:22:00.001+08:00

i hate falling sick and i hate swallowing pills! hatehatehate!!! boohoo i wanna get well soon!!! pls plspls..

i love my TUMBLER!!!:D

2011-01-17T00:06:00.006+08:00

YAY SAW MY TUBLER? THAT VERY PRETTY ONE UP THERE! I love the tumbler alot larhs. I cant really bare to use it, yet i thought it would be a waste if i dont take it out and boast that, this awesome one belongs to me and you can't ever get the same one so you can only admire it! HAHA! I thought that these bunch of prettayes and hotties wouldn't remember my birthday, but they actually did! So sweet of them right to actually text me and wish me. Oh plus eileen called me right after she came back from m'laysia! Im just so touched!! Okaye enough of my bimbo moments! Shall work hard now to earn more money to celebrate all these ppl's b'days!!(:

Im glad i enjoyed my last teen birthday(: xoxoxo

on the verge of crying

2011-01-14T01:23:00.010+08:00

This is one of the first things that i want to do really badly after turning 19th! Which is to narrate about my shocking day! I was supposed to meet the girls at bugis after my tuition, knowing that they'll be late, i took my time there, trying to walk really slow. Upon reaching i only saw winnie, and she said that the girls wld be late so alright. After walking ard for awhile, I was getting all hungry and angry cause she said the girls were'nt coming anymore!!!:( So w/o any mood to celebrate anymore, i asked if bf cld come and fetch us home, and he said okaye.

Here comes the 2nd part. On the way home winnie said that she was going to meet her fren somewhere ard bf's place, i believed her. When i reaached home, i was abit afraid to see the room's door closed and was curious like why is it close? So i went to open the dorr and bf pushed me in! TADAH!! SURPRISED! THE GIRLS WERE IN THERE!!! They decorated the room with pretty balloons and shimmer paper cuts all over and a cake on the bed(: Sadly i didnt get to take a picture of everything cause i was all surprised! haha

I just wanted to say, to me they're a bunch of beautiful people, not only on the outside, but on the inside too. Their beautiful faces make me wanna meet them more and hopefully everyday just like the good old sch days. Their inner beauty of thoughts and care touched me every now and then, when i know that i'll be able to safely entrust them with my real self. All in all, i just love you girls! THANK YOU FOR THE BEAUTIFUL SURPRISE WHICH MADE ME really wanna cry at that point of time(:

rashes or shots

2011-01-07T22:19:00.016+08:00

What should i say? Despite me drinking so many times i still get rashes now! But i hope its getting better? As in the rashes would get lesser each time, hopefully. The company waas good. i like the music but not mambo. I thought that the prime time was towards the end when clar joined us after "babysitting" her friend. haha. Im like dying to go tmr but then agn, i got tuition to teach on the next day. Screw that sunday morning tuition.

i miss them now!

2011-01-07T20:48:00.010+08:00

These pictures were taken damn long ago like before x'mas, when we met up for our gift exchange(: Ha those were the times when we were all so free to gather every now and them for impromtu meet ups! I somehow miss them now! Cant wait to see them on thurs!(:

dancers kiss-mars

2010-12-27T23:29:00.002+08:00

The dancers had a christmas gathering at jm's place with steamboat. Ltr we head down to the studio for some drinking session to make our targets drunk! Alright just a short write up a real short one! gonna prepare my study materials for my Primary school kids~!(:

HOHOHOHO

2010-12-26T02:14:00.004+08:00

Santa's in town, and i just caught a sight of him slipping thru me last nite(: MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL!!(: i hope all of you enjoyed your x'mas like i do(:

injustice

2010-12-18T02:32:00.002+08:00

or rather just a waste of time? I cant help it but i really need to rant. I can promise that i put in my heart and soul in every planning and gifts i got for each and everyone of my frens. I dont forget your b'days and i dont like ingrates. I see everyone putting in effort but not you. The lest i expect from you is cooperation . im sorry but you just suck. He rmbs your b'day or sld we say all of us so you jolly well put in the effort to repay our kindness. Im sick of your all talk no work attitude MR. insincere jerk

im travelling

2010-12-14T01:34:00.001+08:00

soon enough for me to be off with my lagguage

pom pom pom PROMMMM(:

2010-12-12T18:30:00.007+08:00

up there are some pictures from prom(: there is way too many to be up here so just a few(: prom was alright food wasn't tat good, but we've got a good mc. quite an entertaining nite with the lovely dancers(: Post prom was drinking session with the seniors, which was epic. Some were "sober" and some started to dance, quarrel and all which was pretty much a fun sight to watch, just the aftermath rashes that suck-.-

IM BACK TO REVIVE YOU BLOGGYYYY(:

2010-12-12T01:36:00.006+08:00

Finally A's is over!!! imma happy child now! hope this stays on till the day i get back my results!!! though im reli crossing my fingers for it! so far post A's activities were good not so much of a boredom more of fun(: i cant get enough of it(: my first activity right after A's would be to the marina barrage with the dancers! which was pretty much a good thing to celebrate the end of exams. more to come!(:

i hate the F word

2010-08-04T20:59:00.001+08:00

FAIL

When life fails you, what's next? This is the part of journey that really kills me.. I am fearful and unprepared. I dont want to face this. Bring me somewhere, where i get to hide and hide and hide till im done escaping..

I wish this happens everyday(:

2010-08-02T21:08:00.009+08:00

my only escape

2010-08-01T03:50:00.010+08:00

SUM & EILEEN

2010-07-02T00:16:00.003+08:00

both make good company(: After being in hunger for the whole day, i met up with the above 2

pigs as planned for dinner(: After which was frolicks! But i seemed to have developed a phobia

for it haha! BUT then agn, both piggies love it more cause it thicker now? hahaha! Okaye time to

really plan for our end of year trip tgt!! cant wait! okaye for this i shall keep myself motivated to

study for my A's(:

on a lighter note, i just realised something, she really loves him alot so much so that she's willing

to suffer and live on with his nonsence, i salute her really(:

it always seems better on the other end

2010-06-30T22:32:00.005+08:00

when life wasn't all bout goals, when i was so much happier..

of the world, which is so near yet so far:( Sld i say, i somehow miss that place or im yearning for

it too much? Somehow it looks pretty much more fun, and full of zest. The tranquility there and

the breeze somehow smells sweeter and gentler. It seems like life wld be better over there? Yet,

life seems to screw up everywhere, anytime, somehow. I guess thats what that makes life

interesting?

Im tired after all these stupid competitions ard me and all the mugging, which is so lifeless at the

end of the day. You study hard so that you can get a good job in future, alright sounds

reasonable. You work hard to get a good life in future, sounds reasonable too? But when are we

going to really get to enjoy all these futures that we're working for? The day when we step into

our coffin? Somehow all these noble aspirations ends up into a vicious cycle that we can never

get out of. I hate to say this but im pretty much sure that all of us wants to get out of this vicious

cycle badly, but we cant, cause we've longed been bought over by this system and the thought of

quitting puts us all back into fear. This fear of losing out, and what wld happen if i stop working

so hard!??!?!

its so sad to live on, in a place like this..

my hatred for you goes all the way back

2010-06-13T02:02:00.002+08:00

you damn bloody soccer. I HATE SOCCER FOR LIFE! if my son ever go so crazy over soccer, i swear i'll kill him.What's the point of living when you're so occupied with it going to the extent of sacrificing someone you say you love! I can nvr leave with this shit named soccer.

SHOW's show

2010-05-23T02:36:00.008+08:00

Went to watch LUO ZHI XIANG's concert on sat(: It was spectaular indeed, nvr fail to put up such an awesome performance(: The next time round i watch his concert, im gonna watch it in taiwan(: Alright pictures shall do the rest of the ilustration.

sigh...

2010-05-21T00:04:00.004+08:00

Im supposed to be sleeping in my cosy bed now, after having a long day studying for my chem test tmr. Yet, im wide awake now being engulfed by what i was told. I cant seem to express the countless grievences i have in me. Don't take sides or pin point when you dont even know a single shit! Im pissed like reli pissed this time round. Why is it always me? You're just so biased towards your son! You always make assumptions!

Back then, you put all the blame on me, now you place everything on me agn! Do you knw how i feel back then?! when im all alone there w/o my parents and all, you came down so harsh on me! When my parents entrusted me into your care-.- You didnt even bother to find out what went wrong you just came to me and push everything onto me!

Now, you're giving me everything agn, thanks i reli love you ttm!-.- If it wasn't for those misunderstandings things wldn't have turned out to be wad it is today! Do you think im not suffering? Im not having a good time either, i blame myself, i tried salvaging it, but its just like that wad can i do, damn it! You think i dont miss you? I actually miss all the things you've done for me, your ginger tea, your awesome cooking skills though your sons have been complaining bout eating the same thing for decades, and how we used to share our sour plums, how you helped me dry my hair, and most of all the 4 hour long talk we had.

I treated you like my mom, i actually miss you okaye. and i care. I dont like the way you judge me, watch me and criticise me. It hurts. i just dont like it..

Flashbacks?

2010-05-12T23:48:00.002+08:00

Was this how it really started between us?

I didnt realised it till someone told me. Somehow, it feels the same sometimes, and yet it feels different somehow? Izzit just me living in your shadow? I seem to see you and those memories ech time i look over. I tried not to, but it just seems to linger on. She seems different.. ech time i try to avoid, i realise smth diff. i hope this lingering moments would end bit by bit..

Till i close my eyes..

Sometimes, crying is the best remedy.

2010-05-11T22:51:00.002+08:00

I've got to admit that crying does helps. Dont avoid this just because you're a guy, who says guys can't cry or rather they shouldn't cry? Crying is type of emotion release, so every single one of you out there is given the right to cry! Take me for an instance, I cry alot.. I cry when im angry, stress, sad, happy? Its a need to de-stress!!!

Tell me what should i exactly do to make you happy? Evrything i do seems to be wrong.. Did not try my best to improve our relationship? Did i not try my best to be a good daughter? Did i not try my best to make you happy? Why am i always the one you'll pick on? I wont say things like you not loving me, cause i knw you do. What really made me so annoyed was the fact that, i dont like you inculcating those values in us. Im someone who went through education, and i have my own thoughts and mindset, so i just couldn't agree with you..Im sorry to say this, im no longer a little girl or someone whom you can influence me to inhabit that mindset of yours. No sarcasm.

Don't force me anymore..

IM HAPPY !

2010-05-02T13:51:00.002+08:00

i hope there wont be anymore spoilers-.- Wouldn't it be good to have the seniors back for every dance pratice? They surely do help me pull thru those moments(:

if only you learnt to see how beautiful i was..

2010-04-28T23:12:00.006+08:00

Its been a long time since i last updated this space! Hmm.. life was like a roller coaster for me, ups and downs(: But its alright, i dont mind the pain and tortures, cause i knw there's a whole bunch of MDC dancers holding me up(: If it weren't for the dancers i would have had vanished totally.. Afterall i know that im not alone, it seems like most of them are going thru somewhat similar situation.. I hope eveything goes fine and that we'll stand strong tgt(: Oh thanks sum the sucker who made things easier(:

If only you knew what i wasn't.. If only you learnt to realise this is how far i can only do.. If only you knew how hard i've tried.. If only you could see the beauty that lies within.. If only you learnt how to accept things.. If only... There is just too many things that slipped off..

now, i realise

2010-04-08T21:17:00.002+08:00

how important you are to me my dear organiser! I totally freaked out when i found out that my hello kitty organiser was not in my bag and nowhere to be seen, i became really worried. Tears filled my eyes and i rushed out of the class halfway to search through all the classrooms i've been to and i still couldn't find it:( The office's lost and found didnt have it tooo!:( I got so sad , that i couldn't pay attention in class at all, thinking what would become of it if it lends into the hands of heartless people with .... intentions. Thanks to gina who saw my organiser and kept it for me!!! For that moment i was so damn happy to the extent of speechless!!! happy me to getback my organiser!!!(: i'll lock you tightly in my bag from today onwards(:

a map please..

2010-04-05T21:26:00.002+08:00

This seems to be a contradicting situation now. All i can say is clarice, you're in deep shit now! I know the urgency and the need to start my engine for the tough journey ahead. Which is, start studying crazily, extra hard for my A'levels, equivalent to no watching of tv, no using of the computer, no shopping and no more daydreaming around:( There's a very small part within me that wants to start studying and prioritise that annoying big exams-.- However, a large part of me wants to end all these shit and the pain of having to endure long tutorials and lectures with a heavy head... I am sick and tired of it, it seems like the driving force and motivation i used to have and the hunger for my future all went missing.. What exactly happened to me?

PRETTAYE please(:

2010-03-26T23:55:00.003+08:00

hmm, am thankful for all the stress relieve things to do. Seriously im tired of studyin. dont feel like studyin. dying to go overseas. at least im better now with you, you, you and you!(: secondary school frens are the ones that walk with you thru life..

2010-03-24T21:20:00.003+08:00

hate ppl who keeps using the public to solve problems. ETC, FACEBOOK. fuck off larhs seriously-.- let me tell you, its not gonna work, in fact you're putting yourself at a losing end. It shows me how right i am in making that decision.

xoxo

2010-03-10T22:51:00.003+08:00

Shopping craze is on trisha(:

It feels good to be able to cuddle with your girlfriend in bed just hugging the stuff toys we used to hug , and talk about all the things that happened(: Looking thru the letters we used to write to each other and all the pictures we took when we were young! the stage when we all had our 2 front tooth missing(: haha! cravings for jap jelly was so extensive that we went to make it and wait idiotic-ly in front of the fridge for it to form before we cld eat it!! HAHAHA!! we shall look forward to the slumber night(: *cross fingers* hoping that kevin wld be able to come back in time for it! Then it wld be a full attendance childhood gang gathering(: haha!

Cant wait for these things!!

Chalet with my special 5(:

Dance camp! juniors better enjoy it suckers!

Slumber party(: hooray!! lookin forward to it the most!!

girlfriend's the best, as usual..

2010-03-10T20:20:00.001+08:00

My winter wear reminds someone of me.. sad..

2010-03-08T13:31:00.003+08:00

This time it is for real isn't it... ?

How time flies, and how i wish i could turn time back, when i couldn't be bothered with anything. So i see my friend, you've finally came knocking on my door, filing me with all these emotions and all the playback scenes.. You said I am no longer who I am, but the bitterness i've went thru never became different somehow.. Let's play the merry-go-round game and see where we'll eventually meet in the end.. Forget every single pain being inflicted on you before, be happy(:

i want to leave so badly....

Always, clarice

1 down

2010-03-06T13:57:00.002+08:00

Finally that's one down for now.. Ystd was the release of the A'lvls result i hope i'll be able to get the same joy as zheng gagng next year! when i obtain my other 4 As as well(: look like it has been a really long time since i last update this tiny little space here. Everyday is full of tutorials and more studying to do-_- on top of that it becomes a phenomenon that i look forward to dance every wednesdays and fridays cause that's the only time i get away from sch and books. So much for being the top 25% of our year, we're slogging our guts out, its school, books and home everyday-_- nothing much but these..

This tough journey took away the fun my friends are having now. I really wish all this would end so that i can get out that playing and having all the fun i should have as a teenager.. Despite the hardwork and pressure we get everyday, we still face the same threat of not getting into a local university, because everyone's getting smarter and better:( However, its sad that it doesn't parallel to the fact that everyone should be able to get a share of the pie, isn't it?

What's the use of nurturing a bunch of dead and lifeless people? What's the use of tryin to so hard to create a "more caring" society when what you have isn't really potraying it? Its just a paradox you have to deal with everyday. I have no doubt became one of these lifeless creature.. I've actually been bought into the system of "slog your guts out people"!! Whatever it is, after obtaining my first A to my full A'lvls cert im going to just give up the rest of my time till im done and over with it! Fortunately, obstacles got removed out of my way before all these torture starts otherwise coping with this system would give me a hell of my life. phew~

HAPPY? TIRED? WHAT NOT?

2010-01-29T23:16:00.002+08:00

WHAT A HECTIC WEEK!!!!

This is due to the tests and all the dance preparation that jam up my week!!! Fortunately dance wasn't a chore but much of a fun! Tests were okaye despite not studyin for it! Lady luck is smiling on me(: *cross fingers* Haven't really got the time to blog bout my birthday celebrations!!! okaye i guess i can only dedicate a post to them after allo the events are over. This week we did flashmobs and all, on top of that we were busy preparing for our cca show case and decorating our booths and all the publicity work. Look at us, the hardworking bunch! I bet no other cca is as dedicated as us larhs! Hence, the Gold with Honours title hahaha:D alright off to do more work! dance at 10am tmr! phew!

UN development reports:

2010-01-23T00:29:00.002+08:00

"Of the world’s estimated 854 million illiterate adults, 544 million are women. "

GOODNESS ME!!! Since the start of school, i've not been able to come online to do my uneccessary stuff like blogging, facebook-ing, watching drama and variety shows online, posting pictures. Most importantly, i dont have the time and chance to blog on my birthday and give thanks to the contributers!! bad bad! This is happening all thanks to the damn tests and mountainous pil of tutorials and extra readings! OKaye, tell you something interesting, my GP teacher came up with a new way to do our reading logs(: This is how it goes about, instead of searching articles from the lifeless, boring traditional newspapers and TIME magazines, we get to come in touch with videos and reports from CNN, BBC, CNA, and al we have to do is to type a commentary of 50-100 words paragraph on FACEBOOK(: smart or smart! we safe paper, but waste electricity. we indulge in new media, and pick on the traditional media. What a bunch of ingrates(: Alright enough of GP!!! i'll blog on my birthday, and the other 2 gays birthday, when i have the time(: RIGHT TERENCE! asshole! haha(:

Puzzle fighter!!!

2010-01-09T00:13:00.011+08:00

ghostly jump! haha:D
the beef that was on FIRE!!

Had a really bad night the previous day.. Was awake doing work till late, on top of that the flu did a great job in causing breathing difficulty-.- Bad germs go away! Woke up early for dance, learnt smth new, dance isn't all hopeless for me i hope.. Really dont wanna lose this effort, hope the passion doesn't die off!! GO GO GO!! I MUST HANG IN THERE NO MATTER THE AMT OF THINGS APPEARING AT ONE GO!!!! Scholarship application is half way done.. Hoping that my 2nd interview wld go well(:

In a blink of eye, its 2010.. Dreadful year.. Bingo you got it right, all thanks to A'LVLS!!! New schedule, new timetable, new teachers and new commitments, im al for it.. For the future, i'll do it.. Father, i just pray that you'll giv me the strength to carry on, the perseverence and determination that nvr dies off. And that you'll be watching over me, guiding me, and lastly, walking this journey along side me, i pray. Amen.

Im thankful for love(: Although, we're a young couple, but wad we've gone thru is beyond normal imagination and expectation. Thanks for being that childish you(: Thanks for the games that you suggested(: it reli helped me relieve some stress(: i love you glowy (:

what's the point?

2010-01-07T23:48:00.002+08:00

School's starting in like 3 days time, and i've got hell loads of things incompleted. On top of that, just got to knw a very bad news.. Shall not mention.. Most disappointing of all, was dance.. Everything's happening at one go agn, there are so many opportunity costs which i can tell no one bout. sometimes in life silence is the best approach to others but agony to one's self..

What not..

2010-01-03T00:55:00.011+08:00

Woke up at 3pm today!!!! can you believe it!!! i slept for a whole 12hours!!! hahha:D my whole family was so shocked they thought something happened to me! haha:D Went to get bubble tea with my sis, before i help her with that stupid home ed project! hopefully she'll score good grades for it(: Dinner was steamboat at some chinatown shop(: After which went to shop for tmr's party things at giant parkway(:

P.S I MISS SOMEONE BADLY(:

Time check :

2009-12-31T01:14:00.011+08:00

our "WORK STATION"(:

cute lil JUDE(:

the SANTA & SANTARINA(:

HI all, im so damn bloody bored now!!! All thnx to the vicious cycle>.<>

Last week, i did something different(: Went to lend a helping hand at "free coffee and tea sunday" Its actually organised by charles' aunty(: They go there once a month to provide free snacks for the foreign workers attending that old church, and every year when it comes to christmas, they would offer them goodie bags and free coffee and tea(: But this year they prepared a goodie bag full of food, and they served dinner(: That was a meaningful experience yes(:

OKAYE TIME TO SCREAM!! I DID MY GEOG ESSAYS ONLY TO FIND OUT I ACTUALLY DID THE WRONG ONES!!! DAMN IT!!! TELL ME HOW LUCKY I AM!!!! ARGH!!!

X'MAS FUN(:

2009-12-27T00:45:00.025+08:00

YUMM-IEST food(:

Praise Father for this beautiful season(:

25th was a blast(: Church was awesome, sermon was short but sweet! i like(: Lunch and teatime at grandparents' was the 2nd blast! Ate a whole lot of food and snacks(: Played games with my dearest cousins, presents and joking away(: Everything was good(:

2nd day of x'mas was more fun(: Got to meet love, for lunch and ice-cream(: YAY! Dinner was at uncle's place(: More fun, food was good, but company's the best(: Yay! I like how we're all getting closer(: Presents was sweet(:

Sadly! we were all too engrossed in our activities that we forgot to take pictures!!!!!!!!! NVm, good things are better experienced than seen(: I LOVE CHRISTMAS!!!:D

MERRY CHRISTMAS(:

2009-12-25T01:19:00.008+08:00

LOOK @ MY HOT LOVE(:

aww~ look at how cute love is!!!(:

AWW~ i love you(:

Christmas eve was spent with love(: Met in the afternoon, had lunch and dnner at love's place(: Dinner preparation was fun(: I realised how heavy potatoes are! hahaha:D There was a lot of meat, knowing that love and his bro loves meat(: Turkey, ham, sausages, pie and salad was damn filling!(: Now im feeling quite full, since i just ate the pie love's mom made for us(: I name it AWESOME PIE(: Went to visit love's granny in the afternoon(: She's so cute i swear! Like a young teen(: No awkwardness at all(: Grandpa was welcoming too(: I like(:

On a random note, i miss love alot now:( cause i wont be able to meet love tmr:( clash of time larhs.. Service in the morning followed by small gathering, and dinner so no time to meet love!>.<>

20th anniversary(:

2009-12-23T23:18:00.020+08:00

20 years ago my parents got married on this very day(: 20 years later, they are down with 3 monsters who turn the house upside down with noises and nonsence(:

Dance in the morning was awesome(: We learnt 2 new sets of choreo today, memory full alert!!(: But im beginning to love hip-hop and stuff(: SO FUN!! love the choreo(: Excited for the upcoming flash mob(: Honours Dance CLub is gonna do great once agn(: After that, was followed by x'mas lunch with the dancers(: We had abig appetites man!!! ( as usual larhs hor(: since we are also known as the makan club) Ate a whole lot of things today(:

Rushed home, bathe and got ready(: Met love fer awhile, before joining my family for dinner(: Feasting once agn! All my effort today while dancing went down the drain haha(: Dinner was good(: After which .. okaye rather not mention, spoils mood>.<

Oh ya, btw i met up with my special 5 on tues(: okaye wait not reli all 5:( cause sham didnt turn up:( Anyway, thnx to QIYUAN who treat us to swensens(: sorry ya mr nice guy always make you treat us(: Next time i treat you okaye(: oh ya! we're supposed to meet up next week ya(:

Long after..

2009-12-23T00:09:00.002+08:00

If it takes you 10 years to love someone, it takes the same number of years trying to forget that person.. Please do not stop believing in serious relationships, cause not everyone is like that.. You have 101 reasons to hate this person, but it takes just that 1 reason to love this person, isn't it?

A:" what are you waiting for?"

B:" someone to grow up(:

A:" uh?"

B:" she grows up, she's in love, while i watch(:"

Shopping craze nvr fails

2009-12-20T01:51:00.006+08:00

Im here now, to post some overdue pictures and also to tell everyone that the dancers are back from sydney!!!! yay!! happy much(: anyway, today's yet another shopping day! Dad's overseas so mom no driving today:( and mom wants to try taking public transport agn since she's so pampered with cabs, and cars after she got into adult hood! haha! bought hell lots of things i guess its time to worry bout my stupid pile of tutorials!!! Dance resumes next week happy(: Okaye, off to watch my korean drama(:

i'll be happy will i..

2009-12-14T00:13:00.005+08:00

Today, we went to visit grandma(father's side) and she seems bothered.. She's unwell.. and no one really knows the reason.. Finally, we've all got an answer.. I was not surprised when i knew what's bothering her that made her suffer so much now.. It's becasue she love so much that its hurting her so much now.. Things that she've bottled up all these years have accumulated to a state whereby no one can help anymore... except for Father who will be watching her and guiding her through this tough period...

will this make all of you happy?

2009-12-11T23:51:00.002+08:00

its gonna be alright baby, when the night ends that marks the day.. close your eyes and just lie quietly..

yet another LOST

2009-12-11T23:11:00.003+08:00

I just knew it wld be different since that day. Not one but the whole play. The main characters in it. It's nvr gonna be the same agn, just as i expected it.. to think i actually had that glimspe of hope in me that it wld be the same, cause ech and everyone of them was diferrent from the usuals... haha, i was wrong, guess what i forgot the fact that they tooo are humans(: They were totally predictable, its either this or that.. Today, i finally realised how naive it is to believe in such things when it comes to dealing with human relations.. I think i've finally came to terms that there are some ppl who can nvr be replaced, the role they play can nvr be done by another.. Yes i've lost one whole crew of characters. On a brighter side, i realised how impossible it is to replace my main characters, i shall cherish and treasure it forever, and i promise nvr to try replacing the both of you agn, cause they WILL NEVER do a job as good as the both of you(:

trust no one, you'll nvr go wrong..

PICTURES(:

2009-12-10T23:09:00.010+08:00

Ystd was a day rest for me(: Went out with family for lunch, and mom was totaly funny to the max! She was so crazy when we were having our dessert at frolicks(: Anyway, met charles to pass him the council badge(: Alright pictures!!! shall not make this wordy(:

Finally...

2009-12-09T23:09:00.032+08:00

Ystd was the performance for operation SMILE:D It was a success(: Our performance got the loudest cheers and the audience was overwhelmed by our performance(: GOOD JOB DANCERS(: The hard work, tough trainings, bruises, injuries, lack of sleep, sucky food and all the sweat and tears, were all paid off!!!! ohmy i totally love all of you(: despite the above sufferings we've went thru tgt, we've also had fun watchin the guys and girls tease ech other and how the guys wld entertain us with their childish-ness(: Im so gonna miss it:(

Woke up early today despite the long nite, i think my body clock got used to waking up at that time all ready fer dance!(: Met jiamin fer awhile to lend her my hoodie(: The dancers are going to sydney today, i guess they're now all at the airport making hell lots of noises(:as usual(: haha:D Its sad that i cant join them for some reasons:( To be truthful im actually dying to go fer it since its our hardwork to win the title of gold with honours.. but ya, its alright i hope they enjoy themselves(: im so gonna miss all of you:(

Last but not least, thanks to my dearest family(: my special 5 who came down to watch my performance, sharon ( thanks for the rose!) and gang , jeremy and clique, aisyah, zw, nicholas, seniors and charles( who bought me flowers, balloons and donuts! oh and fer being my hardworking photographer^^ ) thanks all for soming to support HDC!!!(:

bestfriend day(:

2009-12-05T23:48:00.008+08:00

DANCE PRACTICE in the first half of the day was so tiring!!! most of the time or sld i say all of the time im perspiring!!!! my shirt was drenched!!! ewww!!!!! and my knee injury is back!!! argghh!!! i hope it wont aggravate otherwise the performance will be affected!!! okaye cross fingers!!!!

Anyway, met irena aprina today(: woohoo~ its good to meet up with her after a long tiring day(: we had dinner followed by desert a J.CO donuts(: we sat there for more than 3 hours i guess talking bout everything(: I LIKE(: long bus waits are always so fun and enjoying with her ard(: no regrets, no boredom(: love this crazy girl(:

1 day more to go..

2009-12-02T21:12:00.002+08:00

Had dance in the morning after a tiring day ystd(: But its alright(: But for some reasons, we were all so tired today:( Met up with qy and vitt after dance(: Hang out to talk and chill(: hahah:D these 2 guys are like effing jokers!(:

1 more day to go....

MDC ROCKS(:

2009-12-01T23:57:00.012+08:00

THE BUMBLE BEES(: I LOVE!!!

AWWW~ AREN'T THEY AWFULLY CUTE(:

ME LOVE THIS GIRL HERE!! HAHAH:D (i box you arhs!)

our oh so loud leggings!!(:

YAY:D i love MDC more and more ech day!! how?! how?! how?! haha:D

Met the girls ard 12 at bugis(: To shop for our costumes(: we had a hard but fun time!! we're like so distracted by the good and cheap stuff there that we went gaga over all of them(: hahah:D we had to stop at almost every shop we saw! But i like our costumes(: We look so cute in it!!! And thnx to our bargaining skills we got good deals yeah(: Anyway, shaotong and i bought this straw bag thats so sweet looking oh my love it to the max!!! next time we shall carry it out with rachel when we have our MDC picnic(: ME LOVE!! Headed over to AMKSS for our rehearsal(: fun time at AMK hub!!(:okaye more pictures with ruishan(:

speechless

2009-12-01T00:26:00.002+08:00

wad else can i say? i didnt expect you to do this.. ohmy gosh! least expected you to be like this! you gave away smth to me and you actually took it and gave it to another person. wad is this? and you didnt think of me rite like whether i wld need t or wad. and you gave it to me!!! y have you become like this? you totally forgotten bout me or sld i say do it on purpose fer nuts! whatever, im utterly disappointed in you and i guess this is where i get to see the ugly side of you!

where can you get such a whole lot of pretty girls?

2009-11-30T21:31:00.005+08:00

eugene the onli hunk!(:

I LOVE DANCE PRACTICES MORE ECH DAY(:

Woke up, or rather drag myself out of bed this morning for dance(: We learnt new steps today and it was so fun can! i like despite the injuries and bruises(: I hope we will put up an awesome performance where ppl go WOW!!!! Tmr would be mdc's day out(: Shopping!!! yes? haha no! its costume hunting day tmr!!(: oh wells, so long as we get to spend time tgt(:

Today marks the 4th day? yay(: a day closer woohoo!!! Although i look at it everyday and think of it every day:( im so eager to show you wad i've learnt(: nvm i shall wait!!!(: overseas goodness..

days like this..

2009-11-30T00:40:00.002+08:00

are so torturing:( I guess i miss this feeling of missing someone? Its been a yr since i last felt this way? yes? The emptiness in me.. Those memories and trails that starts to appear in me sub-consciously.. Its so annoying ttm!!! FUCK IT!!! I hate waiting, yes. and here i am experiencing it agn.. haha! what a joke can it be.. whatever it is, its making me annoyed cause i cant seem to close my eyes and fall asleep!!! what is this!!1 i need to sleep damn it!!! i got a freaking dance training tmr at 9 am IN THE MORNING!!!

-.-

number 5

2009-11-29T23:03:00.002+08:00

yeah, it seems like the ppl ard me are going overseas!!!! Hmm.. im so gonna be bored and ya leads to sadness!!! I dont even get the chance to go overseas this year!!! WHY??? cause im a pathetic JC student who needs to keep to my commitments and STUDY during the pathetic holiday:( What holiday is this total bullshit!!! We officially end sch on the 26th NOV den plus all the h/w and goin back to sch completely destroys any holiday!!!!!!!!!! SO MUCH FER HOLIDAYS!!!!!

Whatever it is, today was spent with my family agn(: Went shopping and bought hell loads of stuff agn(: But im happy cause bro bought the most things today!! and i think he look hot in them all(: happy happy!!!! i like to dress him up(: alright off to my studies agn:(

Breaking apart...

2009-11-26T18:37:00.004+08:00

09s18, the smallest class i've ever had.. Yet small and mighty rite? I thought the disband quota was 12? We got 13 so y are we still disbanding?:( This is not fair, everything had nvr been fair:( I must say this is the class that made the greatest impact in my life so far? Cause this is where i found my good frens, where i get to experience jc life, where i get to find and adore great teachers.. Its sad that some are leaving us alr, and this disbanding of class is gonna bring me down... I dunno or rather nothing to say that wld make me feel better?

THIS IS SO NOT ME!!!!!! :( im sad cause, i feel that i've lost all my freedom.. im so controlled now , no difference from a jailbird? yes. I've practically reported everything back to you and yet.. I can't even spend time with my frens? You mean this is it? I cant believe this is actually happening to me and that i wld succumb to this. The reason i did this was to redeem myself for making that mistake. But yet, it seems things are being taken for granted yes? I guess i've sacrificed enough.... Try to put yourself in my shoes, you knw how outgoing and how much i love to spend time with my frens.... It seems everything's goin down the drain...

2009-11-24T22:42:00.046+08:00

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY JUGGERNAUT!!!:D

YAY!! Today, we managed to surprise Mr. LAUJUEHUA(: Met aisyah first to get ice-cream from ice-cream chefs, den took the bus agn to jh's place(: We lured him out of the hse, before aisyah and I sneak into the hse (: Hid behind the door and managed to give him a shock of his life(: Im glad you enjoyed our presence(: Wished we cld stay longer(: since it has been a long time since we last hang out tgt(: Your b'day cake is awfully chocolate rich!!! i like!! hahaha(: Finally finished celebrating the last b'day of the month(:

On a darker side, I was awoke today by Cameron's msg:( Its the 2nd time he sent me such a heart-warming text:( After reading it when i was still half asleep, I couldn't get back to sleep:( Its so saddening to me, cause i miss him:(

After i came home, i read the note he wrote for us on face book, and i actually teared:( The 3rd time he wrote smth like this to me:( He was such a great company and he nvr fail to brighten up my day with his whines and complains... The long thurs breaks which we spent bitching bout everyth and the poker games we had in sch. Most of all ST PAT'S speech day:( Im reli grateful to you, and all the gp stuff you thought me.. Im gonna remember this for life and i mean it.. Though it hurts, but i knw how it feels to go thru all these.. Never ever give up cause you wont want to regret it ever agn..

"We ignore the ones who adore us, adore the ones who ignore us, love the ones who hurt us, and hurt the ones that love us" so true indeed...

p.s i do not knw why, but i became sad when you did that prank. mayb its just me being paranoid but i knw its time...

2009-11-23T00:05:00.000+08:00

PICTURES OF THE DAY:D

2009-11-22T23:42:00.000+08:00

HAPPY HAPPY 17th B'DAY TO BOTH CHARLES AND WENHUI:D

Today's a busy day!!! yes no?!!??! This month is the month filled with birthdays!!! And all the birthdays are like so close to one another!! We were all busy planning and doing all the preparations!!! TOUGH!!On top of that i have to balance the time spent on the preparations of the b'days and my dance practices! oh man, tiring to the max!!! But i hope they like them all(:

Sat the clique celebrated charles' b'day(: Today was dinner celebration with his family(: Cause his mom was so nice to invite me (: We had dinner at some hotel at clarke quay(: The food was awesome!!! nice nice!! Their desserts were heavenly!!! The thought of it made me drool(: To the extent that i even dreamt of it on the way home(: hahaha:D The hotel's ambience was great(:

Also, miss busy attended miss ida's wedding today(: She looked so pretty!!! The sight of her wedding made me realised how much we've all grown and now she's alr someone's wife!! soon a mum yeah(: It was great getting to meet my favourite f&n classmates(: And familiar faces like those of the teachers, mr cheang, mr lim B.H, miss joey lim, miss sharifah, mrs ng and mdm riah(: There was the participation of the army officials too cause her hunsband's an army big shot hahaha(: interesting though!!(: In all today's a happy day though i was tired(:

2009-11-20T22:49:00.000+08:00

X-day

Today marks the day whereby we get to experience the cruelty of reality. Its weird that i cant seem to be happy even though i've been promoted-.- No matter what, i'll nvr be separated from the both of you, cause you know how much i love the both of you. It alright, though we might not eventually take the same route anymore, but i'll always be the same me, waiting here patiently, to lend you guys a helping hand. Be it sadness, happiness or whatever you might be feeling, just know I'm always here(: Although i feel sad and lost at this point, and i admit that i've lost heart to carry on, but i know i will be fine soon and i'll start shining once more(:

2009-11-19T21:36:00.000+08:00

RANT RANT RANT rant rant rant

that's what im here fer:( I AM FREAKING TIRED MENTALLY AND PHYSICALLY!!!! you've nvr been thru tough dance trainings like ours okaye. We use both our brains and body to train mind you. i am so damn freaking tired and i still meet you even though you wanted to. You sld be understanding and not add onto my burden. I didnt turn you down despite being exhausted, but wad did i get? No worries, shall learn to turn ppl down from TODAY onwards. NO more accompanying ppl so easily no more ordering me ard. FUCK YOU.thnx fer spoiling my initial good mood.

2009-11-18T21:16:00.000+08:00

Meteor shower(:

Last night, was supposed to be the meteor shower(: The news reported that the best part was singapore and in the east side, which is where we are!! But.. sadly i didnt get to watch it:( cause its 5am in the morning and im too tired:( whatever it is, i'll wait 22yrs ltr(: When im 39 yrsold!! mayb by then i'll be a teacher in tpjc! hahaha(:

Alright, my life's gonna revolve round dance practices so ya, wont be heading out tat often fer fun:( its alright! i'll have fun at dance tooo(: Anyway, OP 's over , eh wait i mean PW's FREAKING OVER!!! i guess its went pretty well(: except fer someone who brought down our grp's marks nvm though wad's done cant be changed:(

okaye, time fer overdue pictures(:

2009-11-11T18:47:00.000+08:00

I hate you P.....

Finally, you're finally here for me.. I thought i missed you last month, didn't know you would be back so fast... Thanks for your visit that i'm lying in bed now.. I can't even stand up and walk cause i'm in pain.. On top of that, my back problems back again.. Its so painful that i cant stand straight, now i have to hunch... I cant even lie straight.. To the extent that it went to frightening.. That big patch of blue-black that i found on my back is freaking me out.. am i going to die? I'd rather be in pain, but please don't let me die yet... I hope the pain gets better otherwise, its going to affect my OP this friday...

2009-11-10T00:15:00.000+08:00

OHMY!!! I FINALLY FOUND A MORE RECENT PISTURE OF US(:

2009-11-09T23:09:00.000+08:00

special 5's finally 17th!(:

YAY! we finally got to meet up after donkey years!!(: hahaha:D its our youngest dude's birthday(: guess who else's so special to me to be born onthis day(: 9/11:D so we mat up had dinner, and ice-cream!!!(: i like how the 6 of us can get tgt after so long and always have endless of topics and stuff to talk bout(: all laughters and jokes(: i like!!! finally the 6 of us are officially 17th(: im happy to see the 6 of us grow up tgt(: and how we're all diff now, but our friendship nvr dies(:I cant wait fer next year to come, when allof us turn 18th(: our first step into adult hood(: let's meet up often durin th dec holidays(: and guys have fun stayin in the hostel(:

2009-11-08T00:20:00.000+08:00

ITS ALWAYS MY DAMN BLOODY FAULT RIGHT!??!?

cant you just be nicer to me? and stop pushing everyth to me? you're nice to me today, nasty to me tmr, hot and cold. what else can i say? you're so found of finding fault with me when you're unhappy. its always me. be it work, siblings, daddy, carissa/javier, you nvr failt to make me that target. Y do you hate me soooo much? WHY?! you kept thinking how bad i am, and how much you hate me. To tell you the truth i cant bring myself to tolerate anymore, im your DAUGHTER not your ENEMY. no matter how much i wished to run away and leave this place i cant. cause i've lost my hideout opportunity and place loong time ago... I am all alone and all i can do now is to stay put and tolerate everyth till i get to move out and live on my own...

Im tired... I am really tired.... Y dont you even try to knw me better and what im thinking abt. and wad are my future plans and goals? you dont bother at all.. y are you always so near yet so far? i cant seem to reach out to you anymore... when things weren't that bad, i ONCE had someone to fall back on.. i lost it.... Im all alone now, for real...

2009-10-31T00:50:00.000+08:00

After a looooong time...

We're finally meeting up(: so happy! Came home feeling damn sleepy, due to the accumulated lack of sleep! Due to fucked up PW & MT!!!! -.- Slept all the way till 5, got ready, and out i go fer dinner(: Dinner was yummy(: Caught the SISTER'S KEEPER after that.. Its such a sad movie that i hate it!!! Its the 1st ever movie that made me leave the cinema feeling so bad... Till now alright.. But i hate to admit the movie's good.. Am excited for tmr(: Shopping with mom would be a bomb(: I shall await(:

2009-10-27T22:58:00.000+08:00

BEST FRIENDS

This happens when you start to like/love your frens tooo deeply that you fall deeper and deeper into it ech day...I've been thinking about it for the past few days, and i admit it was tough.. But to keep it going, its best things return to how it began... I want to watch you grow spirtually, mentally, physically and all, whatever you name it.. I want to be the fren that you'll come to when you're down, happy, embarrassed, in love or frustrated? Yes, i want to be the one watching and guiding you through silently, by your side... Cause, thats wad best frens do(: Last but not least, I LOVE YOU BEST FRIEND, though things could have turned out better...

2009-10-24T23:45:00.000+08:00

GREATEST REMEDY

SHOPPING BABY!!! thats the greatest remedy(: today's kinda like the cousins' outing hahaha!:D went shopping at vivo to wash away all my stress from deadly pw-.- We boought quite alot? especially the 3 girls(: we totally raid topshop(: ahhaha(: zw bought things tooo(: I LIKE(: followed by dinner with irena and ornela(: hahaha!!!(: okaye back to pw:(

2009-10-21T11:26:00.000+08:00

SURPRISE!!!!!!!

I AM SO FRIGGING HAPPY AND SURPRISED:D

I nvr expected you to talk to m on msn first, and nvr expect you to call me(: (: (: Just when i wanted to forget you, you pop up and made me realised how pampered i am.. We talked on the phone like nth happened before, recalling the times you had to deal with miss difficult(:

Iwas laughing and crying secretly, cause how silly of me to not see how much you've done for me in the past.. I truly believe how you've pampered me(: Recalling the times when i had such sleepless nights, you wld cuddle me to bed by telling me all the stupid jokes that made me laugh(: the bedtime stories i wld request from you(: How we wld just lie down and talk bout everyth under the stars, how we wld always spill our secrets to one another(: Nvr fail to call me when i cant sleep, nvr fail to turn up before me when i needed you...

Nvr fail to understand me, always knowing wad i want.. Always buying me stuff, every single time we go out(: Being my image"consultant" haha:D And how we wld shop fer clothes and everyth tgt(: Eat, shop EAT, shop(: how you wld always cheer me up when im angry(: You really knw how to deal with miss difficult(: And yes, i admit i used to hide those things like stars and all, haha i guess that was childish of me?(: I wld always come running to you, tellin you how angry i am with my family, frens and teachers.. and ended up crying because of them!!! You nvr fail to get me tissue, and i mean tissue BOXES haha!! yes you're right(:

someone said this last nite:" i knw you hate to cry, but you cry alot. casue you that's the only way you resort to venting your frustrations and sadness."

Ohmy totally!!! At least you knw the reason why im crying, and not thinking that i actually LOVE crying.. Although i didnt had to speak much last nite, you seem to knw everyth.. You understand wad im goin thru.. And if you're reading this, i just wanna thank you(: and get a hair cut that you promised me ya?(:

2009-10-21T01:33:00.000+08:00

lastly, i cant bear to let you guys go...

MY HAPPY PILLS(:

MY DEAREST AWESOME FOURSOME:(

BFF:( i'll support you no matter how much i hate to see you leave)

my TALLEST bestfren(: you knw I LOVE YOU even if we get bitchy<3

PROMOS (when you face the reality)

Got back our damn promos results today.. Yes i passed all but so wad? It doesn't mean im happy? In fact im afraid and sad.. I cant imagine promoting to J2 w/o the rest of you... You knw the 6 of us have always been damn close.. And im gonna miss cameron if he doesn't make it too:(

everything's gonna be different and i mean REALLY DIFFERENT.. it feels like im in an alien world... You guys made me fall in love with you all and now you are all gonna leave me alone? I reli cant accept it.. I knw this day wld come.. But i jus choose to avoid thinking bout this.. And i reli dont want any of you to leave sch... pls...

Cant imagine my best fren is leaving me... Like 2 best frens leaving you in the same yr... It hurts.. You dunno how much im gonna miss you ppl.. its like i see you guys in every corner of the sch, i reli cant accept it.. when we all skip sch tgt:( canteen extension, noodle stall, library, e212, J212, stadium, and last but not least especially the GYM:( typing this alone makes me tear non-stop.. I knw you guys might think that im bullshitting cause i pass all and sld feel happy but im reli not.. Ican swear that im reli sad becasue of you guys okaye.. You guys have became so impt to me that its no longer bout me its bout you guys...

AISYAH, CAMERON, JUEHUA, KEESIANG & ZHANWEI I LOVE YOU GUYS...:( AND I MISS YOU PPL ,EVEN NOW... i dunno y, but i cant help it..

2009-10-19T00:09:00.000+08:00

screwed up girl

finally understood im not up fer this game

cant handle this

dont deserve this

tired

stops believing

im just goin back to hiding

2009-10-18T23:12:00.000+08:00

SORRY..........

no amount of sorry makes up for what had happened.. Im crying agn... I did things that i sldn't have done it at all... I can no longer do the things i used to, i miss .....I lost things that i'll nvr get back agn.. I knw its all my fault.. I was too pampered, spoilt for having so much fun.. Thinking that although you cant be here fer me, its alright,, Cause i have my frens who can keep accompany thru the times when i want to stay away and hide.. i thought i could escape.. i dunno who else to turn to from now onwards... To keep it all to yourself is the best remedy... I feel awful now... Spoilt fer always thinking i could lean back on the company of friends.... you can call me a slut,bitch,loser,sucker, whatever you wanna name me...

2009-10-16T22:07:00.000+08:00

MORE ON MY LAPPY, thnx to juehua who spam it with his face!

2009-10-16T21:50:00.000+08:00

SICK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GET AWAY FROM ME GERMS!!!!!!!!!!!

yes, im sick:( Headache,flu,sore throat and fever:( and im sorry to pass it to my dearest frens:( didnt go to sch today, and my great company skipped sch tooo(: apparently i spread the flu bug to them:( Alright, too weak to type further

p.s its wrong to compare, but im used to being loved and pampered.. im sorry:(

2009-10-14T22:16:00.000+08:00

POUT

I LOVE TO POUT !!!!:D

Yes, someone here is bored(: SCHOOL IS SO BORING TO DAY!!! CANT BELIEVE IT!!!! PW ANDMT!! KILLME!!! AM UNHAPPY BOUT IT!!!!1 FCUK THOSE INTENSIVE PW AND MT SCHEDULES!!! suck balls>.<>

Just finished teaching my dearest bro chem and physics(: Im so proud of him fer being so smart!! DO WELL TMR, i'll be praying fer you(:

2009-10-13T22:01:00.000+08:00

AWESOME(:

I guess im having sleeping problems agn.. I slept quite late ystd and woke up at 7am today:( Watched my drama till its time to get ready(: Went fer movie, i finally got to catch THE UGLY TRUTH(: haha:D The movie was sweet(: After which met up with the clique fer dinner @ changi(: We ate a hell load!!! $118 mind you!! hahaha:D Anyway, im sad... cause there's sch tmr!!!!!! Intensive pw and mt:( damn it!!! But with company i wont be bored i hope(:

2009-10-12T19:56:00.000+08:00

IKEAAAAAAAAAAAAAA:D

Went back to sch for the college's yr book photoshoot(: The bloody system's so screwed that we had to wait damn long!!! But lucky waiting wasn't that bad with awesome company(: Went to ikea for lunch/dinner(: MEATBALLS and chicken wings oh, and ice-cream(: I love the brownies there!!!! I bought home 1 haha(: saving it for rainy days(: Oh georgina bought a shark(: its called jack!(:

CUPCAKES happy anot bert!(:

2009-10-12T00:25:00.000+08:00

PAIN!!!!!

Miss Tan here is in much pain:( Tummy hurts like no other!!! You knw how i am with cramps, i cant move much and i'll be in pain till i'll cry and struggle!! Leg hurts tooo:( I think i must have exert tooo much!!! Must be the badminton, gym and dance!!! Plus today's joggin:( BUT, the main point is, i am veri happy to knw that so many ppl are concerned fer me(: THANK YOU FOR ASKING!!!!!!(: you knw I LOVE YOU ALLL(: looking at the above cucakes make me feel better at how adorable they can be(:

2009-10-11T02:13:00.000+08:00

ORCHARD

Met company at ard 3plus? Headed down to town and shopped thru the whole stretch(: It was damn fun, funny, and a trip full of food!!!! Did some shopping, laughed all the while, slacked and home at this hour(:

THANK YOU FOR ACCOMPANYING ME!!! I LOVE YOU GUYS(:

2009-10-09T22:05:00.000+08:00

HAPPY HAPPY!!!:D

Ystd was the official day, we're finally FREE from promos!!!(: Ystd, we went over to cameron's place to play xbox(: Cameron's being so nice, guiding me and teaching me, while jeremy continued to me a bitch and ram me over with a car!! haha:D okaye we shall challenge on halo agn(: Company and myself, went to have sakae sushi ate like mad!!!(: Bloated and went home(:

Today, was my first day at the tampines' sports hall's badminton court(: Im proud to say all my frens are badminton pros!!!(: Headed fer mac breakfast and back for gym(: My first time to the gym dere tooo(: hahaha! your fren here's a NOOB haha! but i still perspired larhs!After which was movie!!! We watched CLOUDY WITH A CHANCE MEATBALLS!(: its damn nice, and the characters are all damn cute! The movie was so delicious, the super food machine invented could make the whole place full of ice-cream!!! and and and jelly beans!!! YUMMY!:D Surprise was next up(: haha:D thanks to my so sweet frens (: I love the stuff toys(: Pasta mania for dinner, followed by ice-cream chefs!!!(: I had a wonderful day(:

p.s someone's finally talking to me more normally, adds onto my happy happy day!!! yay!!(:

2009-09-30T22:58:00.000+08:00

EIGHTEEN CHEFS(:

Studied at the library today(: And im glad that its productive for me(: At least i managed to finish up some(: Im gonna do GP tmr, cause paper's on this fri!!! ohmyohmy!!! I really hope i'll do well for GP!! Today's the first time having eighteen chefs (: I disliked baked rice all the while:( But today's baked rice with curry sauce was awesome!!! yummy yum yu,:D its the first time i finished my baked rice(: I like!!!:D alright off to eat my mooncakes(:

2009-09-25T23:05:00.000+08:00

HAPPY PILLS that made sch sooo much fun!!:D

totally gave up, just allow them to vandalise my arms!!
tallest bf!!!:D

THE BIG GUYS!!!:D

GIRL POWER:D

Hi, let me introduce my happy pills to you people out there(: They are non other than the big guys who are crazy bout gym and stuff! haha:D Most importantly, my TALLEST babe!!! W/o her i wld be damn sad and bored!!!! She's always there for me, when i needed a listening ear!!!:D The big guys are jokers(: They made my days eventful(:

Today, when we just lie down and look at the sky, i felt reli comfortable, as we began to spill our thoughts(: I felt relieved , finally being able to tell someone my silly thoughts(: I am so bloated right now!!>.<

2009-09-24T21:20:00.000+08:00

PROMOS stress

Im starting to feel the promos stress piling up:( which is bad, cause its gonna cause me to be insomia when i need sleep, and i'll start to breakdown:( Everyth's gonna go haywire:( I hate stress!!! Meanwhile, im glad to have pillars ard me to hold me up in times like this(: I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!:D esp to my 3 other awesome friends(:

2009-09-22T22:13:00.000+08:00

SMILE

How long more can i allow myself to carry on? For the first time , i allow distractions and emotions to overtake my determination.. I t feels really sore, to keep questioning yourelf if you've made the right decision? Have i regretted? Its all my decision all along to walk this path, endure this shit, and load of crap.. Having to blast my earphones to avoid all these. I allow this to affect me and eventually it piles up at home, as my sis pulled the trigger. Skip meals and what else can i do to torture myself? Family adds onto my stupid problems.. Having to face that terrifying surfacing promos is driving me mad.. Selfish people that are so NOT responsible make my day worse! I HATE YOU, HATE EVERYTHHING!!!!! I HATE THE WAY I BEHAVE NOW!

behind every smile, a bucketful of tears follows in the night...

2009-09-21T22:52:00.000+08:00

LAZY JUEHUA!

aww, someone playing my fav piece(:

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!:D

Yay! happy happy! i like celebrating festive seasons(: went over to beloved aisyah's place(: Ate alot! we raid her cookies apparently! It was damn fun, with like mahjong, cards and all(: I like her sisters!! they're like super cute(: That goes w/o saying, just take a look at my cute friend aisyah(: Her parents are cute tooo! her dad was super hilarious!!! Its in the genes(: Her neighbours are pretty much great company tooo(: All was good(: And yes thanks to zw and jh for making fun of me as usual!:D

*p.s i think someone's playing skills are getting better(:

2009-09-19T23:58:00.000+08:00

look at wad i have debra+ian = DEBIAN!!!!:D they look alike !!! crazily alike!!! this pic made me laugh alot!:D the female version of ian!

2009-09-19T21:53:00.000+08:00

bitch rabbits!!! FAMILIAR?

SHOPPING DAY!!!!:D

Woke up late today, managed to get ample sleep(: Woke up jus in time for dim sum, with my family(: Ate alot, got so bloated thanks to the milk tea!(: Shopping next up, went to get my NUM slippers(: I got 2 pairs, bro and mum bought tooo(: Clothes, jackets, pyjamas, and loads more!!! I was eating and shopping the whole day!!!:D like totally!!! Anyway, its cousin's 21st birthday(: I hope you'll do well in your future endeavours(: I miss someone(:

2009-09-18T23:22:00.000+08:00

Integrated day(:

P.E in the morning was fun(: I LOVE TOUCH RUGBY!(: Mr Nordin is nice larhs, and i think he's cute tooo(: He actually said that FBTs likes me! hahaha!:D my ass larhs!(: Had pw which i thought was productive for me(: Haircut was up next(: And i think that my fringe's fine, but the back's short!:( Its alright, cause at least someone looks good(: I loik!:D Went for dance, everything was alright till some ppl pissed me off like no other, i reli hate to see them acting this way! Spoil my whole damn day! In addition to it, i walked home in the rain cldn't stop sneezing but was alright after a hot bath(: Met irena, and she became a TPJCian for a day(: Awesome one i guess? since she ot to meet my cute friends tooo(:

Studied for awhile while she listen to jeremy bitch(: Dinner @ subway!!! Made my day agn(: Got my cookies, and the guys were good at telling stories bout miss cursed(: haha:D Shopped ard, while sharon got her ear piece , and miss Tan here got a pair of cute shoes, and its super cheap(: I shall wear it for sch? mayb?(: OH OH OH and someone bought me a mickey bolster, its super cute and comfortable i like it alot(: AM HUGGING IT RIGHT NOW(:

2009-09-17T21:54:00.000+08:00

BLOATED!!!!

Im so full now thanks to burger king!!:D I finally understand that a person's mood would affect their appetite(: When im down, i dont feel like eating:( but when im happy, i eat all i can(: i knw its risky!!! haha:D Im having the hello kitty sweet bought by someone(: Its mats day today!!! All of us are like busy doing the tutorial questions(: Anyway, yes, someone tried to pacify me , like finally you're doing smth , to show that you reli bother trying(: Someone's having a tummyache:( My tummy hurts tooo:( i hope you'll be fine sooon, and fever free(: yay!

p.s i still thinks that juehua's poems are good! at least it made my day(:

2009-09-16T20:18:00.000+08:00

I am proud to have a friend who writes good poem that entertains me!!!

i write about singapore
House tax, income tax, GST
Everything in Singapore is not free
Even taxi also must raise fee
Changi to Orchard not very cheap
ERP plus airport fair all one heap
I count also until want to sleep
Foreigners who come and find a place to stay
Always become the taxi driver prey
Taking the long route since they don’t know the way
But AngMoh no choice, must say OK
Its like tax is Singapore’s identity
Drive past Bugis also must pay money

Morning everyday six o’clock
On bus so many people, I very shocked
Practice the Singapore spirit they always do
They think rushing for seat is so cool
My friend always say if cannot find seat
then don’t go school

Lady in her 70’s boards the bus
Her leg is wrapped in a plaster cast
Looking so frail she may turn to dust
There is Silence----as everyone stares
Slowly these turns to glares
Don’t come here, go board the stairs
Up there I think have more chairs

Slowly she advances Undeterred,
Her soft footsteps they all heard
Passes by the seat with the nerd
Suddenly he concentrates on school work
To the end of the the bus she has gone
Yet the Singapore spirit still stands strong
Uncles sipping coffee and tea
In the bus, aunties gossip intently
All pretending not to see

Economy so bad, people lose their job
So all must go gamble at Integrated Resort
Next year you see like Las Vegas
Debts piled so high it reaches Uranus
They say its all for the economy
No need worry about calamity

Always say foreign worker at void deck very noisy
Own self midnight sing karaoke, others go crazy
Tax rise a little, we all riot
Why not just go on a simple diet?
Other country get tsunami til very bad
Singaporeans all say very very sad
Ask them donate money all call you mad
But once got free thing, all first to grab
Poke our nose into everything,
Little event also must make big
Post on stomp and MTV
To let the whole world see

Don’t worry, this is part of our nature
Always complain about the future
So everywhere we go, people know our identity
Stand proud, backs straight, Singapore is our country!

By: Lau Juehua(:

2009-09-16T15:14:00.000+08:00

Taken for granted...

Am i at fault for wanting to help you? I thought that my reminders wld keep you awake so that you would be able to pay attention during the lecture, never have i thought that it would be annoying and irritating for me to receive a "TSK". Guess what? Thats the sound i hate most and i mean HATE! If i love you, like you, care for you and reli think that you are someone important to me in life, i WOULD NEVER EVER hurt you on purpose and all i wanted was for you to do well... I WAS WRONG for wanting all that and doing all that shit stupid reminders. Im washing my hands off you , and in the first place, sldn't have cared so much at all .. okaye so much for me being a KPO! Gave me that attitude and response in front of everyone and i mean EVERYONE, all my classmates were lyk dere, and this is what i get fer being a darn bloody KPO okaye!

Just because you have it and you got it, gives you the right to treat her differently and take for granted everything that she did fer you?! if you realise she wld nvr do such stupid things in the past ! she gave in soooo much and changed hoping that she'll treat you better and not regret so much. what you said today totally made me regret my decision even more.. im full of REGRETS now..

2009-09-13T23:06:00.000+08:00

Its school time in a few hours:( SAD!!! Its the last day of holiday, and we're all back to that boring , lifeless school life that i have:( B-O-R-I-N-G!!!!

2009-09-11T23:17:00.000+08:00

Its hard, but i'll keep trying .... I hope you'll just give me a chance..

2009-09-09T19:44:00.000+08:00

in the process of stripping JUEHUA!:D

aww! BROTHERLY LOVE(:

" eh okaye larhs, i tell you smth but you cannot tell the rest arhs, dont even ask juehua okaye! actually, i going to meet 2 TJC girls with juehua, we goin to study(:"

"aiya dont keep asking larhs"

"teacher, can i leave earlier i got smth urgent" rushes out of the class(:

hahah:D HAPPY BIRTHDAY BESTIE in advance(: My bestie here is theking of pranks but we actually managed to trick him!! hahaha:D he was so cute larhs so shocked and all(: I hope you like the surprise and gifts we bought you(: Now that your a yr older, mature and stay strong in your beliefs(: YOU KNW WE LOVE YOU!:D

2009-09-09T00:22:00.000+08:00

caught the TIME TRAVELLER'S WIFE(: The book alone was great! I didnt expect the movie to touch my heartonce agn(: I keep asking myself several questions as i read the book.. and i asked them agn when watching the movie(: I knew i wldn't have the patience and toleranceto keep waiting... I cant imagine the person whom i love so much disappear w/o telling me anyth, cause i'll nvr knw when he'll be back fer me? I just hate or am afraid of waiting... I dont ever want to wait agn:( In the story, he kept disappearing and re-appearing agn, although i knew he wld die eventually.. I was sad, but happy knowing that he wont be gone fer long , cause he's a time traveller(: i truly admire her courage for believing that he's gonna be back real soon(:

2009-09-07T21:21:00.000+08:00

CUTENESS!!!(someone trying to sneeze)

today's a HAPPY day!!!:D

yay!! happy happy:D School at 10am, followed by intensive mugging!!! Did chem and maths(: I LOVE BOTH!!:D grandma came over and broght food, dere goes my effort:( Its alright, cause i met dearest one fer jogging!!!:D Went to bedok reservior, its a beautiful and cooling place!!! hahahha:D Had ice-cream after that, yes i knw fats burnt gone(: haha:D

2009-09-06T22:19:00.000+08:00

pictures from LEARNING JOURNEY@ the NATIONAL MUSEUM!

TALLEST BF!:D

pictures from MDC's GATHERING(:

EUGENE'S B'DAY CELEB*(extra juzhong!hate him-.-)

AM here to upload some pictures for the past week.. Busy preparing fer the MTAs but lucky they brought back good results(: my efforts were paid off!!! But on the contrast , i get veri sensitive to a specific word recently.. and the mention of it makes me cry and go emo:( its that bad okaye, no joke! you ppl will nvr knw how i feel:( mayb its time to resort to those ways to get rid of them...

The trip to the NATIONAL MUSEUM wasn't that bad? thanks to great company!(: i like the contrdicting displays(: like the ancient figurines with technologies!! damn cool!!! This goes to show how much we've been influenced by technologies:( sad fact:(

2009-08-31T22:38:00.000+08:00

OUR AWESOME GIFT!!!:D

JUEHUA! you knw we're still buddies(:
someone giving a teachers' day speech!:D

HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!!! in like a few hours or so? haha! Anyway, we had our veri own TPJC teachers' day celebration today(: It started out with a speech durin morning assembly given by the most dearest person(: Had lessons before heading for our break(: Foursome awesome was having fun preparing our gift fer mrs koh!ahahah!!! Aisyah and my part was beautifully done not like zw and ks!!! theirs was so gay!!! ahha! but overall it was cute(: (: (: so happy!!!

Now, comes the best part(: The concert!!! It was entertaining as we had friends performing(: I love the cheering part larhs! when we were all having fun bustard-ing ech other and teachers(: (: (: After which jiamin came over fer awhile!!(: Before heading out agn(: We caught THE PROPOSAL!!! It was a good movie i must say(: Its so touching i just love how the way it progresses!!!(: esp, haha you knw that part!! inside joke (: