SUM & EILEEN

both make good company(: After being in hunger for the whole day, i met up with the above 2

pigs as planned for dinner(: After which was frolicks! But i seemed to have developed a phobia

for it haha! BUT then agn, both piggies love it more cause it thicker now? hahaha! Okaye time to

really plan for our end of year trip tgt!! cant wait! okaye for this i shall keep myself motivated to

study for my A's(:

on a lighter note, i just realised something, she really loves him alot so much so that she's willing

to suffer and live on with his nonsence, i salute her really(:

it always seems better on the other end

when life wasn't all bout goals, when i was so much happier..

of the world, which is so near yet so far:( Sld i say, i somehow miss that place or im yearning for

it too much? Somehow it looks pretty much more fun, and full of zest. The tranquility there and

the breeze somehow smells sweeter and gentler. It seems like life wld be better over there? Yet,

life seems to screw up everywhere, anytime, somehow. I guess thats what that makes life

interesting?

Im tired after all these stupid competitions ard me and all the mugging, which is so lifeless at the

end of the day. You study hard so that you can get a good job in future, alright sounds

reasonable. You work hard to get a good life in future, sounds reasonable too? But when are we

going to really get to enjoy all these futures that we're working for? The day when we step into

our coffin? Somehow all these noble aspirations ends up into a vicious cycle that we can never

get out of. I hate to say this but im pretty much sure that all of us wants to get out of this vicious

cycle badly, but we cant, cause we've longed been bought over by this system and the thought of

quitting puts us all back into fear. This fear of losing out, and what wld happen if i stop working

so hard!??!?!

its so sad to live on, in a place like this..

my hatred for you goes all the way back

you damn bloody soccer. I HATE SOCCER FOR LIFE! if my son ever go so crazy over soccer, i swear i'll kill him.What's the point of living when you're so occupied with it going to the extent of sacrificing someone you say you love! I can nvr leave with this shit named soccer.

SHOW's show

Went to watch LUO ZHI XIANG's concert on sat(: It was spectaular indeed, nvr fail to put up such an awesome performance(: The next time round i watch his concert, im gonna watch it in taiwan(: Alright pictures shall do the rest of the ilustration.

sigh...

Im supposed to be sleeping in my cosy bed now, after having a long day studying for my chem test tmr. Yet, im wide awake now being engulfed by what i was told. I cant seem to express the countless grievences i have in me. Don't take sides or pin point when you dont even know a single shit! Im pissed like reli pissed this time round. Why is it always me? You're just so biased towards your son! You always make assumptions!

Back then, you put all the blame on me, now you place everything on me agn! Do you knw how i feel back then?! when im all alone there w/o my parents and all, you came down so harsh on me! When my parents entrusted me into your care-.- You didnt even bother to find out what went wrong you just came to me and push everything onto me!

Now, you're giving me everything agn, thanks i reli love you ttm!-.- If it wasn't for those misunderstandings things wldn't have turned out to be wad it is today! Do you think im not suffering? Im not having a good time either, i blame myself, i tried salvaging it, but its just like that wad can i do, damn it! You think i dont miss you? I actually miss all the things you've done for me, your ginger tea, your awesome cooking skills though your sons have been complaining bout eating the same thing for decades, and how we used to share our sour plums, how you helped me dry my hair, and most of all the 4 hour long talk we had.

I treated you like my mom, i actually miss you okaye. and i care. I dont like the way you judge me, watch me and criticise me. It hurts. i just dont like it..

Flashbacks?

Was this how it really started between us?

I didnt realised it till someone told me. Somehow, it feels the same sometimes, and yet it feels different somehow? Izzit just me living in your shadow? I seem to see you and those memories ech time i look over. I tried not to, but it just seems to linger on. She seems different.. ech time i try to avoid, i realise smth diff. i hope this lingering moments would end bit by bit..

Till i close my eyes..

Sometimes, crying is the best remedy.

I've got to admit that crying does helps. Dont avoid this just because you're a guy, who says guys can't cry or rather they shouldn't cry? Crying is type of emotion release, so every single one of you out there is given the right to cry! Take me for an instance, I cry alot.. I cry when im angry, stress, sad, happy? Its a need to de-stress!!!

Tell me what should i exactly do to make you happy? Evrything i do seems to be wrong.. Did not try my best to improve our relationship? Did i not try my best to be a good daughter? Did i not try my best to make you happy? Why am i always the one you'll pick on? I wont say things like you not loving me, cause i knw you do. What really made me so annoyed was the fact that, i dont like you inculcating those values in us. Im someone who went through education, and i have my own thoughts and mindset, so i just couldn't agree with you..Im sorry to say this, im no longer a little girl or someone whom you can influence me to inhabit that mindset of yours. No sarcasm.

Don't force me anymore..