JANELLE!!!!!:D

Alright, girlfriend's leaving tmr:( Wonder when's the next time we'll get to see her:( But, its alright, cause just know that im jus an email away(: I'll be waiting fer you right here in SINGAPORE!!! hahaha:D on standby anytime(: and i wont be sad, fer i knw that you'll be happy and doing fine, NO, i mean great! And you'll get to do wad you've always wanted, im glad to knw ur happy, tats enough(: I KNOW WE'LL ALL DO WELL!!!!:D yay!!! i knw you'll also rmb me(:

OHMY!!!!!!!!! MATHS MID-TERM ASSIGNMENT POSTPONED TO NEXT MON!!!! HAPPY HAPPY HAPPINESSSS!!!!!:D okaye time fer other things-.-

1. EOM(last draft)
2. reading log
3. GP compre and summary:(
4. Econs quickcheck!!!!

okaye back to serious job!!!!! :( ANYWAY, I LOVE JANELLE ONG PEI YI!!!!(:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE(:

Its national day a few hours ago(: I got to meet special someone!!! yay!!! happy happy(: i thought i wldn't be able to meet that special someone(: I finally got ice-cream chef's today!!! But it was a pity that they don't have cookie dough today and worst of all no kinder bueno!!!>.<>

MY AWESOME FOURSOME!!!:D

JONGWON:D

JOSHUA:D

MY FAV LITTLE ONE!:D ISAAC^^

MY FAV BUDDY!! CAN'T LIVE SCH W/O HER:D

NATIONAL DAY celebration:D

The college expect all students to come in either red or white, or ethnic costumes. So ya, wore red cause i didnt want to do the ACES day workout in ethnic costume cause its goonna be damn hot and immobile:D And guess what our "creative" school has programmed fer ACES day? We freaking had to do QI GONG!!!!:D funny rite! and mass dance was not so bad(: haha! After which we had the various YOG games where we had a chance to try out the games, like handball, archery and fencing(: Quite cool! Short break, before heading to the audi fer the long awaited performance!(: The classes who had performed all did great(: yay! But, guess what are we down fer! ECONS lesson rite after the celebration:( Decided to have seoul garden fer lunch/dinner, thnx charles fer being a gentleman(: He was diligently cooking fer me and aisyah! haha:D

I feel sore...

I HATE not being the best. I hate not being the top in class. I HATE having to face ppl who reminds me how much they've achieved w/o hardwork. I HATE how i've changed for ppl and things, when it used to be the ppl and things that change because of me. I HATE the stress and pressure. I HATE questioning myself every moment. I HATE having to compete so vigorously now and then.

I used to be up above so high, confidence, the energy, the vibe, the craziness, all that is gone now..EVERYTHING HAS CHANGED for the worst... Studies, so tough that i worked so hard just to achieve so little, that is far from satisfying! Lifestyle's changing because of someone... I used to be the one excelling and being the smarter one of the 2, but now, its jus retarding my process. everything's going haywire... i cant believe i actually allowed myself to be resigned to such fate.. giving in, and changing and having to accomodate.. this is driving me nuts!!! i feel sore okaye!! THIS IS SO NOT ME...

JC IS SCARRRRRRRRRRRRYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!

This part of education is constantly scarring me!!!! From the time i first set foot into the sch they told us bout retaining and the criterias fer uni and all that. I felt the stress right frm the start larhs!! After several exams i was all stressed up alr, afraid that i wld retain and all that... And now learning the fact that someone is gonna leave us im feeling so sad larhs!!! I tout that they were actually playing a trick on me by tellin me he's leaving!!! I didnt expect it to be true:( I'LL MISS YOU DUDE!!!!!!! :(

THIS feeling sucks..

when you knw you sld be sleeping by now, cause there's school tmr and you need to focus durin tutorials and lectures.. But it seems that you just cant fall alseep despite all these.. having insomia is the last thing you ever wanna have:( on top of that, missing that someone makes it so breath taking that i just cldn't stop staring at pictures and allowing my pen to take control of my feelings, writting down i miss you... it seems empty knowing you're not here, yet it feels so warm to knw that your hearts so close to me...