I feel sore...
I HATE not being the best. I hate not being the top in class. I HATE having to face ppl who reminds me how much they've achieved w/o hardwork. I HATE how i've changed for ppl and things, when it used to be the ppl and things that change because of me. I HATE the stress and pressure. I HATE questioning myself every moment. I HATE having to compete so vigorously now and then.
I used to be up above so high, confidence, the energy, the vibe, the craziness, all that is gone now..EVERYTHING HAS CHANGED for the worst... Studies, so tough that i worked so hard just to achieve so little, that is far from satisfying! Lifestyle's changing because of someone... I used to be the one excelling and being the smarter one of the 2, but now, its jus retarding my process. everything's going haywire... i cant believe i actually allowed myself to be resigned to such fate.. giving in, and changing and having to accomodate.. this is driving me nuts!!! i feel sore okaye!! THIS IS SO NOT ME...
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