He's no substitute! I've nvr saw him as a substitute of anyone before! He is what he is, and they are 2 different people, i hate it when i heard someone saying that! HE'S NO SUBSTITUTE moron-.-

GIRLFRIEND HAD TOUCHED DOWN ALR(:

IM SO HAPPY FOR YOU!!!:D im lyk talking to her right now! haha:D its early in the morning over dere, she's experiencing jet lag! she woke up at 5am!!! ohmy poor her!!! cause she used to sleep alot last time in s'pore! haha:D anyway, she showed me the hse she's living at now, its so damn pretty i swear!!!(: anyway, a day full of homework and lessons today!!! tmr will be better(:

JANELLE!!!!!:D

Alright, girlfriend's leaving tmr:( Wonder when's the next time we'll get to see her:( But, its alright, cause just know that im jus an email away(: I'll be waiting fer you right here in SINGAPORE!!! hahaha:D on standby anytime(: and i wont be sad, fer i knw that you'll be happy and doing fine, NO, i mean great! And you'll get to do wad you've always wanted, im glad to knw ur happy, tats enough(: I KNOW WE'LL ALL DO WELL!!!!:D yay!!! i knw you'll also rmb me(:

OHMY!!!!!!!!! MATHS MID-TERM ASSIGNMENT POSTPONED TO NEXT MON!!!! HAPPY HAPPY HAPPINESSSS!!!!!:D okaye time fer other things-.-

1. EOM(last draft)
2. reading log
3. GP compre and summary:(
4. Econs quickcheck!!!!

okaye back to serious job!!!!! :( ANYWAY, I LOVE JANELLE ONG PEI YI!!!!(:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE(:

Its national day a few hours ago(: I got to meet special someone!!! yay!!! happy happy(: i thought i wldn't be able to meet that special someone(: I finally got ice-cream chef's today!!! But it was a pity that they don't have cookie dough today and worst of all no kinder bueno!!!>.<>

MY AWESOME FOURSOME!!!:D

JONGWON:D

JOSHUA:D

MY FAV LITTLE ONE!:D ISAAC^^

MY FAV BUDDY!! CAN'T LIVE SCH W/O HER:D

NATIONAL DAY celebration:D

The college expect all students to come in either red or white, or ethnic costumes. So ya, wore red cause i didnt want to do the ACES day workout in ethnic costume cause its goonna be damn hot and immobile:D And guess what our "creative" school has programmed fer ACES day? We freaking had to do QI GONG!!!!:D funny rite! and mass dance was not so bad(: haha! After which we had the various YOG games where we had a chance to try out the games, like handball, archery and fencing(: Quite cool! Short break, before heading to the audi fer the long awaited performance!(: The classes who had performed all did great(: yay! But, guess what are we down fer! ECONS lesson rite after the celebration:( Decided to have seoul garden fer lunch/dinner, thnx charles fer being a gentleman(: He was diligently cooking fer me and aisyah! haha:D

I feel sore...

I HATE not being the best. I hate not being the top in class. I HATE having to face ppl who reminds me how much they've achieved w/o hardwork. I HATE how i've changed for ppl and things, when it used to be the ppl and things that change because of me. I HATE the stress and pressure. I HATE questioning myself every moment. I HATE having to compete so vigorously now and then.

I used to be up above so high, confidence, the energy, the vibe, the craziness, all that is gone now..EVERYTHING HAS CHANGED for the worst... Studies, so tough that i worked so hard just to achieve so little, that is far from satisfying! Lifestyle's changing because of someone... I used to be the one excelling and being the smarter one of the 2, but now, its jus retarding my process. everything's going haywire... i cant believe i actually allowed myself to be resigned to such fate.. giving in, and changing and having to accomodate.. this is driving me nuts!!! i feel sore okaye!! THIS IS SO NOT ME...