SMILE

How long more can i allow myself to carry on? For the first time , i allow distractions and emotions to overtake my determination.. I t feels really sore, to keep questioning yourelf if you've made the right decision? Have i regretted? Its all my decision all along to walk this path, endure this shit, and load of crap.. Having to blast my earphones to avoid all these. I allow this to affect me and eventually it piles up at home, as my sis pulled the trigger. Skip meals and what else can i do to torture myself? Family adds onto my stupid problems.. Having to face that terrifying surfacing promos is driving me mad.. Selfish people that are so NOT responsible make my day worse! I HATE YOU, HATE EVERYTHHING!!!!! I HATE THE WAY I BEHAVE NOW!

behind every smile, a bucketful of tears follows in the night...

LAZY JUEHUA!

aww, someone playing my fav piece(:

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!:D

Yay! happy happy! i like celebrating festive seasons(: went over to beloved aisyah's place(: Ate alot! we raid her cookies apparently! It was damn fun, with like mahjong, cards and all(: I like her sisters!! they're like super cute(: That goes w/o saying, just take a look at my cute friend aisyah(: Her parents are cute tooo! her dad was super hilarious!!! Its in the genes(: Her neighbours are pretty much great company tooo(: All was good(: And yes thanks to zw and jh for making fun of me as usual!:D

*p.s i think someone's playing skills are getting better(:

look at wad i have debra+ian = DEBIAN!!!!:D they look alike !!! crazily alike!!! this pic made me laugh alot!:D the female version of ian!

bitch rabbits!!! FAMILIAR?

SHOPPING DAY!!!!:D

Woke up late today, managed to get ample sleep(: Woke up jus in time for dim sum, with my family(: Ate alot, got so bloated thanks to the milk tea!(: Shopping next up, went to get my NUM slippers(: I got 2 pairs, bro and mum bought tooo(: Clothes, jackets, pyjamas, and loads more!!! I was eating and shopping the whole day!!!:D like totally!!! Anyway, its cousin's 21st birthday(: I hope you'll do well in your future endeavours(: I miss someone(:

Integrated day(:

P.E in the morning was fun(: I LOVE TOUCH RUGBY!(: Mr Nordin is nice larhs, and i think he's cute tooo(: He actually said that FBTs likes me! hahaha!:D my ass larhs!(: Had pw which i thought was productive for me(: Haircut was up next(: And i think that my fringe's fine, but the back's short!:( Its alright, cause at least someone looks good(: I loik!:D Went for dance, everything was alright till some ppl pissed me off like no other, i reli hate to see them acting this way! Spoil my whole damn day! In addition to it, i walked home in the rain cldn't stop sneezing but was alright after a hot bath(: Met irena, and she became a TPJCian for a day(: Awesome one i guess? since she ot to meet my cute friends tooo(:

Studied for awhile while she listen to jeremy bitch(: Dinner @ subway!!! Made my day agn(: Got my cookies, and the guys were good at telling stories bout miss cursed(: haha:D Shopped ard, while sharon got her ear piece , and miss Tan here got a pair of cute shoes, and its super cheap(: I shall wear it for sch? mayb?(: OH OH OH and someone bought me a mickey bolster, its super cute and comfortable i like it alot(: AM HUGGING IT RIGHT NOW(:

BLOATED!!!!

Im so full now thanks to burger king!!:D I finally understand that a person's mood would affect their appetite(: When im down, i dont feel like eating:( but when im happy, i eat all i can(: i knw its risky!!! haha:D Im having the hello kitty sweet bought by someone(: Its mats day today!!! All of us are like busy doing the tutorial questions(: Anyway, yes, someone tried to pacify me , like finally you're doing smth , to show that you reli bother trying(: Someone's having a tummyache:( My tummy hurts tooo:( i hope you'll be fine sooon, and fever free(: yay!

p.s i still thinks that juehua's poems are good! at least it made my day(:

I am proud to have a friend who writes good poem that entertains me!!!

i write about singapore
House tax, income tax, GST
Everything in Singapore is not free
Even taxi also must raise fee
Changi to Orchard not very cheap
ERP plus airport fair all one heap
I count also until want to sleep
Foreigners who come and find a place to stay
Always become the taxi driver prey
Taking the long route since they don’t know the way
But AngMoh no choice, must say OK
Its like tax is Singapore’s identity
Drive past Bugis also must pay money

Morning everyday six o’clock
On bus so many people, I very shocked
Practice the Singapore spirit they always do
They think rushing for seat is so cool
My friend always say if cannot find seat
then don’t go school

Lady in her 70’s boards the bus
Her leg is wrapped in a plaster cast
Looking so frail she may turn to dust
There is Silence----as everyone stares
Slowly these turns to glares
Don’t come here, go board the stairs
Up there I think have more chairs

Slowly she advances Undeterred,
Her soft footsteps they all heard
Passes by the seat with the nerd
Suddenly he concentrates on school work
To the end of the the bus she has gone
Yet the Singapore spirit still stands strong
Uncles sipping coffee and tea
In the bus, aunties gossip intently
All pretending not to see

Economy so bad, people lose their job
So all must go gamble at Integrated Resort
Next year you see like Las Vegas
Debts piled so high it reaches Uranus
They say its all for the economy
No need worry about calamity

Always say foreign worker at void deck very noisy
Own self midnight sing karaoke, others go crazy
Tax rise a little, we all riot
Why not just go on a simple diet?
Other country get tsunami til very bad
Singaporeans all say very very sad
Ask them donate money all call you mad
But once got free thing, all first to grab
Poke our nose into everything,
Little event also must make big
Post on stomp and MTV
To let the whole world see

Don’t worry, this is part of our nature
Always complain about the future
So everywhere we go, people know our identity
Stand proud, backs straight, Singapore is our country!

By: Lau Juehua(: