X-day

Today marks the day whereby we get to experience the cruelty of reality. Its weird that i cant seem to be happy even though i've been promoted-.- No matter what, i'll nvr be separated from the both of you, cause you know how much i love the both of you. It alright, though we might not eventually take the same route anymore, but i'll always be the same me, waiting here patiently, to lend you guys a helping hand. Be it sadness, happiness or whatever you might be feeling, just know I'm always here(: Although i feel sad and lost at this point, and i admit that i've lost heart to carry on, but i know i will be fine soon and i'll start shining once more(:

RANT RANT RANT rant rant rant

that's what im here fer:( I AM FREAKING TIRED MENTALLY AND PHYSICALLY!!!! you've nvr been thru tough dance trainings like ours okaye. We use both our brains and body to train mind you. i am so damn freaking tired and i still meet you even though you wanted to. You sld be understanding and not add onto my burden. I didnt turn you down despite being exhausted, but wad did i get? No worries, shall learn to turn ppl down from TODAY onwards. NO more accompanying ppl so easily no more ordering me ard. FUCK YOU.thnx fer spoiling my initial good mood.

Meteor shower(:

Last night, was supposed to be the meteor shower(: The news reported that the best part was singapore and in the east side, which is where we are!! But.. sadly i didnt get to watch it:( cause its 5am in the morning and im too tired:( whatever it is, i'll wait 22yrs ltr(: When im 39 yrsold!! mayb by then i'll be a teacher in tpjc! hahaha(:

Alright, my life's gonna revolve round dance practices so ya, wont be heading out tat often fer fun:( its alright! i'll have fun at dance tooo(: Anyway, OP 's over , eh wait i mean PW's FREAKING OVER!!! i guess its went pretty well(: except fer someone who brought down our grp's marks nvm though wad's done cant be changed:(

okaye, time fer overdue pictures(:

I hate you P.....

Finally, you're finally here for me.. I thought i missed you last month, didn't know you would be back so fast... Thanks for your visit that i'm lying in bed now.. I can't even stand up and walk cause i'm in pain.. On top of that, my back problems back again.. Its so painful that i cant stand straight, now i have to hunch... I cant even lie straight.. To the extent that it went to frightening.. That big patch of blue-black that i found on my back is freaking me out.. am i going to die? I'd rather be in pain, but please don't let me die yet... I hope the pain gets better otherwise, its going to affect my OP this friday...

OHMY!!! I FINALLY FOUND A MORE RECENT PISTURE OF US(:

special 5's finally 17th!(:

YAY! we finally got to meet up after donkey years!!(: hahaha:D its our youngest dude's birthday(: guess who else's so special to me to be born onthis day(: 9/11:D so we mat up had dinner, and ice-cream!!!(: i like how the 6 of us can get tgt after so long and always have endless of topics and stuff to talk bout(: all laughters and jokes(: i like!!! finally the 6 of us are officially 17th(: im happy to see the 6 of us grow up tgt(: and how we're all diff now, but our friendship nvr dies(:I cant wait fer next year to come, when allof us turn 18th(: our first step into adult hood(: let's meet up often durin th dec holidays(: and guys have fun stayin in the hostel(:

ITS ALWAYS MY DAMN BLOODY FAULT RIGHT!??!?

cant you just be nicer to me? and stop pushing everyth to me? you're nice to me today, nasty to me tmr, hot and cold. what else can i say? you're so found of finding fault with me when you're unhappy. its always me. be it work, siblings, daddy, carissa/javier, you nvr failt to make me that target. Y do you hate me soooo much? WHY?! you kept thinking how bad i am, and how much you hate me. To tell you the truth i cant bring myself to tolerate anymore, im your DAUGHTER not your ENEMY. no matter how much i wished to run away and leave this place i cant. cause i've lost my hideout opportunity and place loong time ago... I am all alone and all i can do now is to stay put and tolerate everyth till i get to move out and live on my own...

Im tired... I am really tired.... Y dont you even try to knw me better and what im thinking abt. and wad are my future plans and goals? you dont bother at all.. y are you always so near yet so far? i cant seem to reach out to you anymore... when things weren't that bad, i ONCE had someone to fall back on.. i lost it.... Im all alone now, for real...