hey ppl, im back?!?!

yup,kinda sick fer the pass few days? it was terrible trust me?! its lyk.. ya.. bad?! ya and all tat flow of projects,tests&homeworks!!!! i gotta tell euu guys smth! its reli touched me alot!!! durin the period whereby im seriously sick... irena brewed me some tea tat will cure and she even acc me all the way, the most touchin part was tat she even helped to do my entire project!!! and allow me to rest, and guess wad she did my project instead of studyin fer her chem test first? i was.. soooo guilty if she dunn score wel... and thnx to jiahui fer ur help tooo... i was reli touched(: i reli love her alot<3> anyway, todae i had PE and it was damn fun larhs:D we played DODGE BALL against 3/3 and we won overall(: 3 CHEERS FER 3/1^^ and euu could see &sense our team spirit and how united our class was(: we were cheer-ing all the way!!! damn fun!!! i reli enjoyed it(: and todae's period all not bad(: got back my progress card fer tis term, tout i was goin to score damn badly.. but in the end, i did quite well(: praise god!! thnx god fer assistin me and always bein dere fer me:D teachin me discipline and patience(: thnx fer bein here all the time(: and i could sense tat euu were watchin over me todae while i was doin my geog test,i believed im gonna score well(: I LOVE EUU JESUS(:

<3

THE BANGLES HE BOUGHT FER ME(:

THE DRINKS WE DRANK AT STARBUCKS^^

TODAE SUNDAY: samn old thing?!!?!?!?!?!!?! bad flu-_-
i reli feel veri sick and most of all my mouth?!!?!?!? soooo UGLY and DISGUSTIN!?!?!??!?! i cant sTAND IT!!!! hais.... nvm... i oso cant do anyth bout it? i went to meet hans fer dinner and he bought doughnuts(: YUMMY^^ he always buy alot alot of doughnuts fer us to eat(:

SATURDAY(:
i was damn weak... heavy bad flu-_- den had to go to sch early in the mornin fer chem lesson.. i tout i was late?!!?!?!?! but den i saw atiqah and decided to acc her to wait fer belle (: we toiut we were damn late?!?!?! however... we are counted quite early(: in class was funn^^ atiqah larhs! took off my shoe and threw it at the teacher's desk(: den i had to hop hop hop on one leg all the way dere to fetch my shoes:D den dey started to hide my water bottle:D after chem lesson went to wenhui's hse fer ss project! damn hard?!?!?!?!? evenin went to meet hans... and i was damn sick... down with flu and my mouth tat part the lips again come back nonsence-_- i hate it!!?!?!?! but was nice with hans(:

FRIDAY:i was sick....
yup... im sick again!!!!!! i jus hate it!!!! after sch went to meet hans.. and he brought me 2 bangles which i love veri much^^ haha:D and den went to his hse fer dinner.den went to watch tv and such.. and my skin comin back again?!!?!?!?!?!?!

everything's gonna be alrite(:
todae i took my f&n test? i tink can make it larhs? and loads of coursework to do?!!?!?!?! sooo much and complicated!!!! if i knw i choose POA easier:( todae cleared most of my things. nth special to blog abt? okaye tats it...

hey ppl(: todae's better at least(: stomach not tat pain anymore and my hair kinda good(: first thing in the mornin hans sent me to sch.. den we met alot of ppl seein us together:D den all of dem were lyk goin sooo hot over heels over tis topic^^ class and lessons were okaye!!! fer such a long time finally dere's one dae tats smooth... todae had fun durin eng lesson (: as we had the pair work^^ and my partner was none other than MR VITTORIO!!! he was damn funni larhs and he could bend the pen jus fer the sake of gettin the pen to fit into the holdin position tat his comfortable with(: tats weird and unique(: as i've nvr seen anyone do tis b4? yup tats all(:

a big W-H-Y to teachers?
todae i was damn fed up durin maths. i was soooo fed up with mr gonel!!?!?!?! he reli?!?!!?!? ruin my maths marks sia! i reli dunn dare to go and think wad'll appear fer my maths marks fer SA2?!?! the 1st test i did veri well(: and fer the second i didnt do cause he onli inform us the dae b4 how to study sia?!?!?! tink i wad?!?!?!? SUPERWOMAN!!!!!!!! the third wan was cause i was absent and didnt take the test he sld let me take wad den lyk tat 2 test 0 liao and he sae the 3 tests is gonna be our SA2?!?!?!??!?!?! kcuf!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and as fer chemistry i dunn understand a single thing seriously???
tats enough fer me to break thoroughly down!!! and todae i got my stomach problems again... it was damn pain!!! i was lyk.. oh my?!?!?!?! do euu knw i was nearly gonna faint as i was walkin home... reli pain until i broke out in sweat... felt lyk bleedin...reli veri pain... pain until now... hais... tis daes are veri down and demoralisin fer me... nth seems to go wel... wad will happen to me? actually im more worried fer irena... she suffered mor den i do... i onli wann her to be happi.. i knw how she feels and understand... but dere's no need to sae it out... i'll do all i can to make her happi..

MONDAY BLUES/STRESS/BUSINESS

all to begin with the start of a week!!! to be sooo stressful with loads of tests!!! alot to cover!!! todae had higher mt workshop until 0430!!! actually dunn wann go wann,but shao lao shi dunn let us be absent so we have to go!?!?!? it was damn borin larhhs?!?!?! so all the time i was doin my own things or laughin with irena dey all(: den after tat went to central to buy bb tea(: frm my fav stall(: CHOCOLATE ICE BLEND+NATA+PEARLS=$1.90 ONLI!!! cheap rite(: damn nice:D yummy^^ den went off to buy breads(: ate alot!! went to irena's place to do literature project finally finish(: yup tats practiccaly all fer todae!?!?!?! jus sooo tired now but despite all tis i still have to continue with my homework and study fer tmr's tests!!! gtg now!!! BYE~

SUNDAE!?!?! yup.. im havin sunday's blue's again:( i dunno y? but i jus dunn lyk sunday:( its lyk.. oh my??!?!?! dere's sch tmr?!?!?!?! no fun?!?!?!!? ya.. anyway,todae after meetin irena i felt soooo hungary,so i went to buy mac fries to eat(: den went to my granny's place to have meesiam and cheese cake?!?!?! both my alll time super duper favourite!!! den went out with mummy and daaay(: while my siblings stayed at home cause dey didnt want to go out so dey jus stayed at granny's place(: den we went out to shop(: i bought loads of cute strawberry shortcake stuff again(: and i felt soooo good(: cause it felt lyk i was the onli child(: hahahaha:D yup anyway den headed back to granny's place fer dinner(: it was yummy and feelin(: i oso had kiwi puddin fer desert(: yummy!!!

haha(: todae went to dere(: den after tat felt veri hungary(: sooo we went to bugis to shop fer awhile(: den went to eat steamboat(: damn alot sia we eat!?!?!? lyk other ppl all eat so lil den we eat sooo damn much!!! but dtill not full(: den after tat went to century square de haagen diaz to have drem waffle(: wow!?!?! damn nice and man zu(: YUMMY!! here are some photos fer euu ppl to enjoy(: and todae i bought

sunglasses toooo(:

TODAE I WENT TO THE KINDERGARDEN!!! IT WAS DAMN ENJOYIN(: O LOVE IT DERE(: I RELI DUNN WANNA LEAVE DEM(:dey were so cute and innocent(: soooo adorable(: kids are jus kids(: i love dem and wanna go back dere to help out(:

todae went to watch movie with irena,yuan,weixian(: and we went to watch rush hour!!! damn funni larhs?!?!!? jus laugh frm start to end(: cant stop(: THUMBS UP!?!?!

TIS IS LOVE

todae my face condition got worse.. reli veri bad... and i get veri paranoid tooo... i cant bring myself to go out... my face lyk rottin,lyk... lyk monster lyk tat?!!?!?!?! i reli feel veri.... i hate it!!!! i dunn wanna go out and show my face!!!!!!! todae my sis accompany me to the doc... and i treat her to a meal... den she tell me tis 2 joke>>从前，有颗糖果，走着走着腿软了就变成软糖(: and tis made me laugh after sooo long tat i've not laughed.. the second wann was>>小惠在晚上一个人回家走过坟地前的小路，突然又一位强盗抓住她，小惠害怕的叫着:"不要不要！你想要做什么？"强盗:"嘿嘿...快~块~带我离开这~好恐怖喔!!" try tis? do euu tink its funni? to me i tink its funni(:

完美足以者的我，失去了曾有的信心...为何我慢慢的发觉现在的我并不是真正的我... 我应该是完美的...应该是漂亮的...应该是受大众注目的人...而不是躲在一角不见人...不是的吗？为何要让我受这样的苦？不要折磨我的身体了...这一种病我不要！耶稣...把我的皮肤病治好吧...我真得受不了这些苦...真的好痛苦...我实在不能接受自己这样的脸去面对大众...真得很丑!让我快快好。。 好不好？这样的我没人会喜欢..没人会欣赏，没人会爱看，没人会找顾或顾虑我的感受...在这个病患的世界里...我觉得孤单与寂寞... 我真的...想离开，躲避这一切... 没人知道我的痛与难受...我希望周围的灯光会熄灭..让我看不见丑陋得嘴角..戴舟我的被和痛...希望我照镜子的时候会看不见嘴角得伤...医好它吧...

i... didnt do my maths test todae... i left my whole paper blank.. it was the teacher's unfairness to me! and tat stupid problem tat bothers me!! i hate all of euu! y do tis to me!?!?!

anyway.. todae's quite fun durin mt period and the talk! zeya and dongrui damn funni sia!!! okaye fine! no matter wad my mood is still in a sucky mood! dunn wann post liao full of heat arhs!!!! GLOBAL WARMIN IN MY BODY!!!

alrite todae's a veri happenin dae fer me! it reli boils my blood and iw as sooo fed up tat i felt soooo sick!!!! smth went wrong with my ipod?!?!!?! i dun wanna sae y?!?!!? but i was soooo damn fed up tat i almost threw the ipod on the floor!!! it was hanged!!!! fer the first time it was lyk tat! and also all my fav songs were gone! and frm 600+ songs to 300+ songs! and most of all!! alot of songs tat i was not interested in appear in my ipod!?!?!?! i was damn ****ing angry!?!?!?! i tink its cause of someone's computer tat lead to tis!! and tat person reli detroy and ruin my life sia!!! yesterdae i even sacrificed goin to my grandma's hse fer dinner jus to go and meet him,and euu knw wad i was sooo damn hungary tats y i wanted to eat outside! but tis guy sae he wants to go and buy things first and he walk round and took soooo damn long! and still have to wait and take the merry-go-round bus tat reaches his home fer dinner! and he tout tat i was jus tryin to be materialistic dunn wanna eat home onli wanna eat out! he didnt even kne the real reason lorhs! its not tat i dunn wanna eat home!!! and when he reach home, normally he will call his mom sooo happily:"妈我回来了" and yesterdae he shouted in a veri 不爽 manner! and it shows so clearly he was unhappy! and when his mom preparin dinner he went in to help! i knew tis was fishy,cause he's not tat knid okaye normally he dont so tat,i guess tat he went in dere to complain to his mom bout me! and true enough he reli did tat!!!i was soooo damn angry!! he didnt knw the reason and maglign me in front of his mom! and i reli dunno wad is he doin dont he knw tat by doin tis 他会让我在他妈妈的心目中狠狠地扣分!!!他就不会想想看吗!! 这样她妈妈会以为我是个檀木虚荣的没家教女孩!! i reli dunno wad to sae to him!! everyth he tell hie mom!?!?! somemore w/o gettin things clear lyk tat blacklist me!!?!?! wad the **** and also he reli nvr respect me?!?!!?! y? y? i reli....我想说不能说的秘密。。。为何要我受如此的负担!!! wad have i done wrong man?!!?!?! i reli... forget it everyth is my fault! im the bad person!! i deserve to be discriminated lyk tis! i reli deserve to die suan le!!! bcos of him i reli arhs.. fall sick euu knw!!! forget it nobody needs to knw my 委屈cause i am bad!! i dunn hav any 委屈onli someone hav!!!

hahoheyhewahaya(:
todae went to but clothes with irena(: bought alot veri ex:( actually i wanted to control myself but... too bad cant help it(: sooo spend lyk hais...anyway yup(: nth reli special larhs(: anyway tmr gonna be the mc fer coral superstar i tink its gonna be a veri funni wan lets see den:D hahaha:D

hahoheha:D
finally everyth got back to normal!! anyway i mus learn to control my temper liao(:
and oh ya! on thurs went to buy clothes with my mom and sis(: and my whole family bought the simpsons shirt and we're wearin it todae to dinner(: wee~ ahaha:D and todae i ate alot of things and force irena to eat with me?!!?! cause i reli chi bu bao sia! dunno y oso? haha:D anyway fat le den continue fat lorhs!! okaye.. ltr if got time den blog again(:

yesterdae i went out with>irena,wenxin,sharon,shumin&grace.. its meant to be happi and fun.. but i was such a spoilspot:( i dunno wad happened to me?!?! i was... reli.. angry and saaaaaad:( cause we oreadi planned to go watch movie and all tat.. den even i tink yl oso sae can go le.. den he always last minute change everyth?!?! i knw its not his fault... but i.. jus cant control it?!?! its not the first time liao?!?! how am i to tolerate tis when i have such a bad!foul!stupid!idiotic!shitty!temper?!!?!?! i sldnt have vent my anger on irena:( i felt so bad shoutin at her in front of sooo many ppl when i knw tat she actually cared sooo much fer me:( i regretted after tat... and i was sooo scared of losin her... cause i reli dunn wanna lose anybody because of hans oreadi:( i even said tat i wanted to break up with him... but he said no! he want me to give him a chance to save tis relationship... but i reli wanna tink over it... todae went out with irena... dunno wad to sae or do... cause im in the fault in the first place... sooo i sooo scared i will do amth wrong and dui bu qi her again:( i reli veri stressed... how? wad sld i do.... lucky kenneth was dere to console me.. and give me advise thnx!! i will seek daddy fer help(: im sure i;ll get over all tis sooon(:

haha(: todae,i went out with irena after sch(: its so fun larhs! we were talkin bout our dremas and such and tellin stories(:anyway todae was funni when i was helpin jiahui dey all act out the play fer dem to film! haha:D sooo funni sia! we keep NG and laugh sia!!! and darryl was cute!?!?! i itnk i;ll appear damn fat and ugly lyk old hag!! anyway(: tmr's my play dae!! happy(:

heyo(: alrite.. todae i forgot to bring my PE along!! drats!! and i felt sooo depressed and lyk wad the hell larhs?!!?!?!? it wasnt the first time im lookin at the wrong timetable again:( okaye! and todae i waited with irena fer her higher mt! and i got 2 tests tmr?!?! which i dunn tink im gonna pass? cause i dunn understand a thing on the 2 chapters!?!?!?! and 2 tests to cope with somemore!?!?! huh wad sia?!?! and todae was great with belle and atiqah?!?! and i feel soo damn angry fer belle tooo caused she lost her mp3 and her wallet but i hope she retrieve dem soon(:and im sooo stressed up now... plannin fer my trip durin the nationa dae holidae! okaye wad ever it is?!?! i wanna take damn loads of pictures alrite!!!

oh ya im so sorri!! i wrote wrongly in my earlier blog!! its not huan huan ai!! its zhaun jiao yu jian ai!!!

yoyoyoyo!!
haha:D yesterdae i had a food tour(: HANS & me went to have steamboat at bugis(: and it was damn nice and feelin(:he was veri sweet to help me cook the stuff(: and after tat we went off.. and guess wad? we smelt damn SMELLY larhs?!!?!?! all the ma-la smell(: haha(: and before goin to his home we went to buy doughnuts fer his family and us of course(: den when we went home.. it was reli tooo smelly tat i cant take it den his mom ask me to go bathe and she offer me her clothes to wear(: and hans sae we lyk the drama:"huan huan ai" haha:D tat was yesterda(: and as fer todae(: i went to his hse fer dinner again(: and his mom's noodles full of large servin of seafood was damn damn damn delicious(: and i finished all(: den.. send me back den he went off to book in(: haha(: and now here i am back home(:

yoi(: todae's friday(: and i started my dae feelin soooo sleppy(: ahaha:D anyway.. todae's quite fun!! in class it was considered'chips' dae(: belle and atiqah bought the chips(: and durin chem.. we went to the lab and we did a experiment that tests fer the presence of diff gases.. and i keep on hic-upppin(: and was called buttercup(: haha:D i love lit period todae me and irena jus slack lyk mad! and we were lyk playin and jokin all the way!! sooo funni!! and after sch we went to tea valley(: and sat dere fer awhile and talked sooo much funni stuff(: and i read her blog le, i knw wad happened too(: but sometimes we jus cant ask fer too much in life it goes to treatin the ppl round euu(: yesterdae slept kinda late cause i was chattin on the phone with han's mom(: and i found out loads of things(: and i knw tat... im actually oso in the fault in the sense tat i didnt pay much attention to him:( but i oso found out some stupid and cute things bout him too(: haha:D anyway.. todae im happi(: yup:D AS HAPPY AS CAN BE^^

TODAY'S FUN!
haha:D it was sooo damn funni durin geog todae(: my core clicks(: i was busy taking down the drawings and ppl were lyk askin me fer ' puncher' and i told dem to wait and dey jus went on askin! i was so frustrated! tat i jus shouted:"WAIT!! IM STILL DRAWIN CAN EUU WAIT!! THE NEXT PERSON HU ASKS FER MY PUNCHER, I'LL PUNCH TAT PERSON!!" and miss lum was lyk:"WOW!?!?! SO FIERCE?haha:D CAN BE MY CLASS MONITRESS" and kenneth was lyk tellin miss lum tats me and i need to calm down and said smth else too. i heard it and i go:"EH! BIG MOUTH, I HEARD IT ARHS! BETTER SHUTUP ARHS!" haha:D and everyone was lyk askin me to chill(: and after tat dey still said:"DUNN BE TOO STRESS UP KAE.AND U'LL FIND UR ERASER SOON" and my eraser was lost! i remmeber i lend it to someone! and when i asked around everyone said no! and lastly when i asked abital, tis was wad she said:"
NO..(with the innocent look)" and i was lyk okaye. den she came to me holdin my eraser and said tat she had.. and i was lyk, huh? haha:D den all my classmates laughed! and oh ya! early in the mornin, shao lao shi put the radio in front of me and told KENNETH LEI to carry it frm me, and he didnt!!! and it was damn heavy!! lucky dere was wenhui to help me(: and when i went back to class i screamed at him and he said he forgot.. and i was goin lyk:"HEY! EUU TIS IRRESPONSIBLE GUY! UR A LOSER! HU ALWAYS BACK OUT!! WAD THE HELL!! UR NOT A GENTLEMEN MAN!" AND ABITAL WAS ALSO ANGRY WHEN SHE CAME BACK TO CLASS(: AND THE BOTH OF US STARTED SHOUTIN ROUND AND THE WHOLE CLASS SO AFRAID AND SHOCKED BY US! and kennth said that dere's 2 angry women tis mornin(: and everyone was so scared especially the guys(: and dey listened by openin the windows, and we were lyk scoldin all the guys(: ahaha(: its funni larhs! and durin f&n i was lyk a joker, makin atiqah and shamira laugh lyk hell(: and we were lyk askin hu has a bf!?!?! haha:D ITS RIDICULOUS BUT FUNN TOOO! altough its a good day todae, on top of it, i have 2 test tmr?! and it takes lots os studyin!?!?!?! arggh!!! alrite, im off to study fer it den(: BYE(:

i feel quite.. i dunno?
sometimes, i reli feeel very pressurised. i know i love my boyfren, but sometimes.. there are times tat he reli dunn get it neither do he understands it. he even sae or ask me things lyk:'are euu embarresed of havin a bf tat is so much older den euu and is in the army?' i felt very sad and hurt.. i couldnt accept tis.. all of my frens or the ppl around me knows tat, whenever dey asks me bout my bf or if i have one? i'll definetly be very proud and happy to sae:" haha:D my bf arhs.. he's 20 tis yr(: and he's in the army(:" and everyone would know how excited i'll get when i mention bout him(: but.. unfortunately he thinks otherwise.. and i dunno y he keep on sayin or makin remarks tat hurt me soo much which made me finde it so difficult to accept it.. from the time i know tat i wanted to be with him, i decided to try all means to get to knw himand also try to be of the same level of interest as him and build up our chemistry.. and i did... and i knw tat my parents' first impression of him isnt tat good.. thus i try all i can to protect him and want dem to lyk him, dey slowly learn to accept him.. but sometimes he's jus so sturbborn.. and i have to try to put in good words fer him again:( and of course.. im also quite pressurised whenever he does smth wrong he'll cry again.. and i got no choice.. sometimes i reli do not knw how to face him... sometimes, im reli tired and want to explain but i guess its not neccesary as he always turns it into smth else when he knws his in the wrong... i reli dunno how to handle and keep our relationship going on if tis continues...

todae's quite funn durin CME lesson(: haha:D all those talks we had among the class. and of course my core clicks(: haha:D and im still guessin(: anyway todae's quite a dae.. ya.. anyway i jus feel so.. i dunno how to describe too..