CLARICE(:

i feel quite.. i dunno?
sometimes, i reli feeel very pressurised. i know i love my boyfren, but sometimes.. there are times tat he reli dunn get it neither do he understands it. he even sae or ask me things lyk:'are euu embarresed of havin a bf tat is so much older den euu and is in the army?' i felt very sad and hurt.. i couldnt accept tis.. all of my frens or the ppl around me knows tat, whenever dey asks me bout my bf or if i have one? i'll definetly be very proud and happy to sae:" haha:D my bf arhs.. he's 20 tis yr(: and he's in the army(:" and everyone would know how excited i'll get when i mention bout him(: but.. unfortunately he thinks otherwise.. and i dunno y he keep on sayin or makin remarks tat hurt me soo much which made me finde it so difficult to accept it.. from the time i know tat i wanted to be with him, i decided to try all means to get to knw himand also try to be of the same level of interest as him and build up our chemistry.. and i did... and i knw tat my parents' first impression of him isnt tat good.. thus i try all i can to protect him and want dem to lyk him, dey slowly learn to accept him.. but sometimes he's jus so sturbborn.. and i have to try to put in good words fer him again:( and of course.. im also quite pressurised whenever he does smth wrong he'll cry again.. and i got no choice.. sometimes i reli do not knw how to face him... sometimes, im reli tired and want to explain but i guess its not neccesary as he always turns it into smth else when he knws his in the wrong... i reli dunno how to handle and keep our relationship going on if tis continues...